To You Jemarre

At night I cry silently
I hide my face from myself
During the day I put
On a mask and fool the very best
Now I feel that I am dying
I feel that all throughout my body
I can't live like this anymore
I really want to die there
Is nothing right going on
In my life it's gotten to the point
Where I can't remember
The last time I had ever been happy
I don't even have to be happy
I just want to feel this way
My body is full of pain
And I don't know why
All I am doing here is waiting to die
I hide what happened to me in the past
Because I think that I like the feeling of being weak
Since everyone knows I am strong
I know how to put my strength by killing myself
Instead of living not knowing anything about myself
I think the three precs are
Working now with the zennis
And halk oint of Paully if I wake for
You to ssssssseeee me again
Then I want something enough