To Tell Someone...

If only you knew how I truly felt bout
You, things would be much easier to do.
But somehow you won't ever know, so I
Guess I'll jus be stuck out here in this
10 foot deep snow.

Somehow I see you here with me, but
Then I wake up and realize all of it is jus
One big broken dream. Wishing this bad
Stuff would go away, hoping you have tha
Guts to tell me what you really wanna say.

From everything I feel inside, I still
Don't have the guts to tell you why,
Why I can't love you how you love me,
But then everything's fine in the end
I see.

I see a smile upon your face, wondering
If I ever made you feel like a disgrace?
Hoping things I said to you weren't
Exactly a total lie, because if it was
Then all you'd want me to do is die.

Why have you done so much bad
Things to yourself, or are you jus
Waiting for someone to scream for help?

I really wish I could be tha one to give
You everything, but something seems to
Be missing so you jus feel like throwing
Me away.

Wondering why I let you play with me
Over an over again like a toy, and me just
Really loving the wrong kind of boy.

Being stuck out here in tha cold, jus
Wanting something or someone to hold
On to me, before I let go of everything
I've ever seen.

Hoping someone will come find me soon,
Before I'm gone to even recognize
You..