This is All Your Fault

I promise it no more
I can't keep the blade away
As it slides across my wrist
The pain just goes away
I try not to do it
But I do it every day.

When the pain is gone
I feel like I can breathe
Do you understand
Why I feel this way

As my mother would always say
This is you're doing not mine
If you would have let us go
My life might be happy

But you wanted the money
So now look where I am
Living in a life I didn't choose
Always scared to do what I need to

Can't ever leave the house
Must obey your strict rules
Who the fuck are you
To tell me what to do
You will never be my mom

If only you were dead
I might finally put my blade away.
But for as long as you live on
My scars will keep on growing
As will my hate for you