The Strength is Gone

I sit around for days and days,
As I hope that my negativity can go away.
I've been told to love who we are,
But how can that be possible when that love is so damn far.

Sometimes I wish my muscles can melt and pour,
So I can't be strong anymore.
All I ever wanted is to be loved,
So one day I can have the courage.

To tell everyone what it is like to be unloved.
It frightens me to think that I failed at life before it really began,
But the truth is that I wish I can decay
Before I even become a true man.

I wish to beg and plea for someone to hear my cries,
As I let my knees buckle,
And my voice break when I spill out lies.
One day I shall be glad to find a true home,
So I can feel love and never crave the need to roam.

Until that time I shall always wish,
That my muscles can melt and pour,
So I can't be strong anymore.