The sound of my heart breaking!

I need to tell you how I feel
I wish I could have stuck to the deal

It was wrong of me from the very start
I should have just stuck to the rules and protected my heart

As I look at you today
I can’t help but see my love, my heart walking away

Will I ever feel like this again?
If so, I wonder when?

This is so very difficult for me
To allow you on the inside of me

I have wrestled with my feelings a time or two
I just can’t shake how this feels brand new

What on earth am I going to do?
Letting you go is one of the hardest things I have to do

These feelings hit me by surprise
So unique like an early morning sunrise

Being together with you means so much
I flutter just thinking about your touch

I have to say that I have never felt this way
Now let me define the term if I may
And please note that this feeling did not occur in one day

I don’t understand why I keep coming back to this place
But I’m going to step back now and give you your space

Every time the feelings become stronger and stronger
I realized that I am torturing myself; I can’t take it any longer

As I write this I am getting all choked up
I feel like my words are about to spill over a cup

Being with you is like - that much needed summer’s breeze
Just barely enough wind to whistle through the trees

My heart is the most complex muscle in my body
All full of thoughts and emotions and I can not share them with anybody

Loving you is starting to feel like a hobby
I love being near you and having you "touch my body"
Plus I will always remember our night in the lobby

The passion the fire and desire
This obsession we have must expire

I aspire to be yours my dear
I wish to always have you near
Losing what was never mine should not be my fear
Yet, as I write this I can’t help but hear
The resonance of my heart tear

I am not ready for this love to perish
Please remember that you are the one that I will always cherish

Helen Ferguson
Rome, GA