The Same Kind

I lie here in my bed every night.
Wondering if these feelings I have for the same kind is alright.
My mind contemplates for a new type of love, that has torn me apart.
All these years I have kept this hidden in my troubled heart.

I try to hold my feelings back for another kind.
I feel my heart and soul are in such a bind.
Have only taken one foot out of the door.
My family doesn't know what kind of person I long for.

If I tell every one, who will get mad?
I don't want to lose no one, my life will become sad.
If everyone could believe and just see.
That I will always be the same me.

Nothing has changed in my heart and soul, nor my looks.
My mind draws the love I have for the same kind in a book.
I have fears, if I put that last foot out that door.
I will lose my friends, family and much more.

I feel like I have isolated my soul.
I am bound to my room which feels cold.
I look in the mirror and work this out in my mind.
How do I say to friends and family I want a different kind?

The same gender I look for, is my life's line.
I want my body and lips to taste that of the same kind.
I want to shout my love for a woman and yell.
Tell everyone if they don't like me cuz I am gay, they can go to hell.

I have made up my mind to be true to me.
Coming out to set myself free.
Decided to walk with the same kind.
Took that last step and now I am fine.