The Phone Call..

The Phone Call.

When we were young I used to think life would stay this way forever and nothing would happen, life was easy-peasy and not a care in the world.. As we grew older into our teen years you grew more and more like your mother- Beaudiful, Careing, Loveing, Tender hearted, Sweet and Smart-(from what I could remember of her) Near the end of the summer right before school started that year, you told me you were going to californa because your dad's job had moved and he had to go or he would be out of a job.... I remembered our last summer together before you moved to Californa.. -We were siting on that hill, oak hill to be correct. Overlooking the small park by the lake.. It was a beaudiful sunset that day, the sparckle of the sun on the lake looked like the sweet shining glowing gloss in your eye's that would warm any'ones heart... I Recall the last words you saying to me

---I'll visit on holidays and you can always call me on the weekend's.. Don't worry.. K?---

That was the last I heard of you.....

Unti'll I got a "Phone Call" from one of your friends in cali telling me the news about how some older guys that were on there way to a party wanted you to go with them to the party.. And knowing you Care-Free-Cystal went along with them, Not knowing they were going to '-rape-' you because if you did you wouldent even of gone.... You cryed every night and not once told anyone about that night.. Not even me.. Finaly after (4) Four long and hard months, You told Jenna Longheart about what happened.. (the girl that called me and gave me the news and your -crystals- new bestist friend) You told her everything that happend that night, when you went with those guys. She said that you should get some help but you dident want help, (you were care-free as a bird and stubborn like a rock) You dident know what to do anymore, where to go, who to talk to, you felt Empty, Loanly, Scared, Afraid, Angry, Ashamed, Guilty, Hurt but most of all Used...... You started to cut yourself thinking "its all my fault.... everything is my fault!!!"

-Kill Me-

You lied to your family so that they would believe everything is ok but really nothing was ok you hadent eaten for days, sleept for weeks and talked to another Guy since..... You disided that you couldent go on anymore you couldent take it anymore!! and so you... You.. Took some pills and went to sleep and not a time to go to bed sleep, an eturnal sleep..... I never would of thought in a million years you would do such a thing... To even speak or thinking about you makes me angry and not so much of what you did but because I wasent there, to keep you safe, to watch over you.. I wasent there to pretect you.....

*Wipes a tear from my eye* .....

Sleep well, Crystal..