The Note He Left (Continued)

Mom I just blew all my thoughts away. And in the end I didn't even mind. The roses are outside and it's snowing, while you all cry over my grave. Mom, I couldn't take it anymore, the dark was calling me.

If you hear a voice Mom, don't you quit trying to listen. Be who you are and forget about me. I'll never loose your picture perfect smile Mom, but I won't miss it either.

On a winter's night a cool breeze blew from you to me and I knew what I had to do. It was obvious that you wanted me gone, you didn't care at all. There was no where to turn Mom, the silence filled my head.

The night's grasp had a hold of me, and he wasn't letting go. Mom I know the true color of crying, all these things I didn't have to know, but learned along the way.

That night I sat at the weeping willow and thought about the wind. It Whipered a sweet melody to me mom, it told me the choice was right.

So I cocked the gun, pulled off my hat and pulled it to my brain. BOOM. All the lost days and nights that flew by me without recollection are now flashing in my eyes.

Mom I'm forever lost, and I learned the deepest hurt. The purple midnight was smooth as I fell to the snow covered ground. At this time all my unspoken words, Mom, where screamed.

Thump, thump..thump...thump.....thump........thump
My last heartbeat struck as it became nothing of importance.

I learned the truth, lies, sadness, pros, cons, problems and situations of life, Mom....
And I know you won't even cry when you read this.