Lost

I cannot remember the last time I smiled.
I don't know how long, but surely awhile.
I remember so clearly loves beautiful taste.
But nothing could help with the pain I would face.

I told myself it would pass, this horrid affliction.
But it seems nothing can sate this vampiric addiction.
I told myself I hate you but who was I kidding?
The pain would just grow this was only the beginning

I hate myself and I hate what I've become.
And each day my sanity becomes more undone
I should have seen it coming but it was too late.
If its you're fault I hurt than why is it me that I hate?

Seconds are hours and hours are days.
I look in the mirror I'm wasting away.
It can't be seen but I feel it day by day.
Please God just help me and take it away.

You were my everything, my life, my love and my only.
Now that your gone its cold and its lonely.
I wander through life broken and scattered.
Don't you realize to me you were all that would matter.

I would never have loved you if I knew this was the cost.
Please someone help me it hurts...and now I am lost.