The Light of Hope Part 2

After being constantly raped my mother have noticed that my behavior was changing on worse. I started having problems with concentrating at school as well as had a problem with making friends. At first my mum thought that I may be depressed at some point or it was just a phase therefore when I pushed one girl off the stairs and one of my teachers have called my mum to school she took it under the consideration. Again, I knew why was it happening and it was so much more I could tell her but I couldn't. I was frightened even to think about it. And I never had a chance to do.

When I was about to be sixteen my mum has fainted at work. They took her to the hospital where doctors have diagnosed a cervical cancer. It was one of the biggest and the worst things I had to deal with. As it turns out my mum was ill for a number of years however she tried to fight it. That time the cancer was stronger than her. It was too late. She has died a week after leaving me and my little sister alone with our step dad. From that time I have become much stronger person than I was.

My step dad wasn't allowed to keep us and raise us as his own children who made me slightly relieved. Therefore the law decided to put me and my sister in a Creswick Road Children Home in London because we were still underage. That's when I saw my sister for the last time. We got separated. In a children home I have grown up much quicker than I might have done otherwise. I have told people about the abuse I have suffered from my step dad and it was the first time I said it out loud and everyone was listening to me. Although no good could possibly come out from it. Everyone thought that I was crazy and did that just to get the attention. I wasn't like that. Of course there were still things in there that have scared me but at least I had a chance to become a stronger person after all this years of abuse. Sometimes I still felt that she was next to me, watching me when I was sleeping. Of course I have missed her but the pain she have suffered for many years - I knew that things have worked out for the best.