The Letter Goodbye
Sadness as a loved one goes down a rode not to follow... read for yourself.
Dear __________,
I was once free.
Nothing, not a single thing stood in my way.
I could do whatever I wanted with whomever I wanted.
Then I saw those eyes for which were more glorious than the sun at noon day.
Your eyes sucked me into a new world of which I was vaguely familiar with.
A world where "friends" were more than people you see from time to time.
A world where "friends" actually like one another and can actually carry out conversations.
You introduced me to a world where I was freer than ever, a world truly sublime.
You made me feel comfortable even in times when I was uncomfortable with myself.
You helped me feel like I had a purpose, like I mattered to someone, somewhere.
Whether I did or not, I know not but you made me feel like I did nonetheless.
You made me a better person and gave me your love and care.
Day by day we grew closer and closer.
Day by day, my feelings for you grew stronger and stronger.
Night after night we would talk for hours on end.
Night after night, I thought this was all a dream, but I couldn’t have been wronger.
My hands warmed by the touch of yours in mine.
My arms melting with the heat of love as we embrace.
My eyes tear up as I gaze at such intense beauty I cannot withstand it.
My mind is fatigued from thinking about you for the span of many days.
But now my mind is fatigued for a new reason.
My mind now thinks all day and all night about what I did wrong.
What did I do to lose you?
My heart has gained a deep hole for I have been away from you for far too long.
Day by day I review every moment I had with you.
Day by day, I imagine ways I can get you back into my life.
Night after night I go out for a walk, to clear my mind and to pray for answers.
Night after night, I lie in bed crying realizing the magnitude of this horrible tragedy in my life.
Perhaps I pushed too hard and pushed you away.
Perhaps giving you all the love and care I could possibly generate wasn’t enough for you.
Perhaps my love was sub-par to the love you could receive from someone elsewhere.
Maybe all of this is correct, meaning my initial thoughts of myself were correct too.
Maybe I’m just not meant to matter to anyone.
Maybe my life is supposed to be a warning unto others.
Warning of what may come to be if you do not seize the day.
Maybe my life has no purpose and that’s why I feel nothing and why my life, no one bothers.
I’m left alone time and time again.
Waiting for someone to enter into my life and rescue me from this dismal hell.
I’m drowning in sorrow and I’m about to suffocate from the lack of breath left in my life.
I stand before a path that leads into darkness and whether I will follow I cannot tell.
The love and care that shed light on my life is gone, and so is the warmth my hands felt in yours.
My hands are frozen solid; my arms are empty, waiting for your return.
My eyes dripping tears, now thick with remorse for I have lost the thing that mattered most.
The memory of your beauty like a candle in my mind, I shall forever burn.
It shall be the only light left in my life for I have nothing.
I have no one to give me hope or a purpose.
All I have are people who stare at me with those eyes, full of judgment and fear.
Standing alone in the midst of this gloomy haze, into the path of darkness I now must run.
Protecting the candle in my mind, never to forget the things you have done for me.
I wish there was another ending, but I have checked all other ways.
This is the only path left, and I must travel it alone.
But never forget that I love you... forever and always.
~GOODBYE~
I was once free.
Nothing, not a single thing stood in my way.
I could do whatever I wanted with whomever I wanted.
Then I saw those eyes for which were more glorious than the sun at noon day.
Your eyes sucked me into a new world of which I was vaguely familiar with.
A world where "friends" were more than people you see from time to time.
A world where "friends" actually like one another and can actually carry out conversations.
You introduced me to a world where I was freer than ever, a world truly sublime.
You made me feel comfortable even in times when I was uncomfortable with myself.
You helped me feel like I had a purpose, like I mattered to someone, somewhere.
Whether I did or not, I know not but you made me feel like I did nonetheless.
You made me a better person and gave me your love and care.
Day by day we grew closer and closer.
Day by day, my feelings for you grew stronger and stronger.
Night after night we would talk for hours on end.
Night after night, I thought this was all a dream, but I couldn’t have been wronger.
My hands warmed by the touch of yours in mine.
My arms melting with the heat of love as we embrace.
My eyes tear up as I gaze at such intense beauty I cannot withstand it.
My mind is fatigued from thinking about you for the span of many days.
But now my mind is fatigued for a new reason.
My mind now thinks all day and all night about what I did wrong.
What did I do to lose you?
My heart has gained a deep hole for I have been away from you for far too long.
Day by day I review every moment I had with you.
Day by day, I imagine ways I can get you back into my life.
Night after night I go out for a walk, to clear my mind and to pray for answers.
Night after night, I lie in bed crying realizing the magnitude of this horrible tragedy in my life.
Perhaps I pushed too hard and pushed you away.
Perhaps giving you all the love and care I could possibly generate wasn’t enough for you.
Perhaps my love was sub-par to the love you could receive from someone elsewhere.
Maybe all of this is correct, meaning my initial thoughts of myself were correct too.
Maybe I’m just not meant to matter to anyone.
Maybe my life is supposed to be a warning unto others.
Warning of what may come to be if you do not seize the day.
Maybe my life has no purpose and that’s why I feel nothing and why my life, no one bothers.
I’m left alone time and time again.
Waiting for someone to enter into my life and rescue me from this dismal hell.
I’m drowning in sorrow and I’m about to suffocate from the lack of breath left in my life.
I stand before a path that leads into darkness and whether I will follow I cannot tell.
The love and care that shed light on my life is gone, and so is the warmth my hands felt in yours.
My hands are frozen solid; my arms are empty, waiting for your return.
My eyes dripping tears, now thick with remorse for I have lost the thing that mattered most.
The memory of your beauty like a candle in my mind, I shall forever burn.
It shall be the only light left in my life for I have nothing.
I have no one to give me hope or a purpose.
All I have are people who stare at me with those eyes, full of judgment and fear.
Standing alone in the midst of this gloomy haze, into the path of darkness I now must run.
Protecting the candle in my mind, never to forget the things you have done for me.
I wish there was another ending, but I have checked all other ways.
This is the only path left, and I must travel it alone.
But never forget that I love you... forever and always.
~GOODBYE~
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