The Gun Against My Head

I beat the shit out of the ugly face in the mirror
It was astonishing how my anger couldn't be clearer
After all this time that I had spent alone
I'd found the reason why I couldn't have known

It was me! I was my own enemy
It was you! Who reveal my hate for me
It was him! After he beat my ass down
It was her! That left me on the ground

Even though my glasses are broken
I see clearer after the words that were spoken
I saw in my mind how I've held myself under
My mind snapped like a clap of thunder

Shocked an awed more than an old veteran
By how stupid I had truly been
Fighting now against the bars in my head
I'm surprised I'd survived, though apparently brain-dead