The Girl With the Fake Smile

Speak to me
The me on the inside
Cause I've got no will to try
Any longer
If you wanna talk
You know where to find me
But I can't keep standing on the edge of your cliff
Cuz I'm starting to think about jumping

Am I alone?
Should I just throw away my phone?
Cuz I feel like an outsider
Everywhere
I think I have friends
But I'm always someone's second choice
Why is it me?
That constantly wants to bleed

I don't.
I run away from the knife
I fear that it would kill my mask
The one I try to wear
Everywhere
And that's too risky,
I couldn't take that chance

My heart seems to bleed
As I hold my feelings down deep
And go on to be this girl
That appears so happy and care free

There is some of me painted into this mask
But everything I want to reveal
Seems insignificant
Like no one would even care
If I ripped it off and said hello
They just see the parts that seem appealing
And let the rest of me go

In the end,
I don't know what's false and what's true
Is this really me? or is this you?
As I mimic the world
And stay in this disguise
I let my bottle fill up
With a million easy lies
What's truly me?
What do I want from this all?
To rule the world?
Or let go of it and fall...
Jump off the cliff
Feel the freedom as I'm in the air
And just fly away
Fly away with no more fake care