The Absence of my First Love

The absence of my first love
comes to realization when I killed the absence and saw
Him
he changed
structure, flaws, traits
remain the same
every time he uses technology
I wonder who it might be
is it just a worry less phone call
from one of his homies
or from one of his baby dolls
we sit and reminisce of our old days which I remember forever
ey, he wearing the same top from 15 December
every time I pass him, I wanna tell him how i feel
but its like it won't make a big deal
he's living his life and im living mine
but right now, I just want our lips to entwine
I wanna feel anxiety, adrenaline
a kiss from him
just one
not none
to kill this colossal crave
and show him how i am made
to show him the passion that has grown and matured
the love that remains which I can't control or remove
but that gives me pain
when you're right by me
but out-of-bounds for me

the absence of my first love
comes to realization when i killed the absence and saw
Him
I can forget the date we broke up
but I can't forget the 15th December
And I can't forget
My First Love

xoxox