That Day, the One I Can't Forget

There I sat
In the corner
Crying
Holding myself

I should have wanted someone else
But I didn't
I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me close
I wanted you to comfort me
Telling me it's ok
Telling me you're not going to leave
Telling me that I'm not a wimp

I believed you
I stood up
Looking at you
Staring at you
You looked back
Thinking it was normal

I lost my heart
In that moment
I gave it up
I started to shake hard
Remembering your reply to an old email
I pushed myself down
Hurting myself
Trying to get over you
It didn't work

You'd kiss my cheek
The lil thing made me happy
But then I remembered the email
Reminding myself
I couldn't love you
Not that way
I kicked myself

You worried
I'd just tell you
'I'm hurting'
You believed me
I cried

I wanted you so much
I wanted you so badly

But then I told myself
'Take the risk'
I took a breath
Kissing your cheek
Not letting my lips leave you
I expected you to slap me
I expected you to yell at me
I expected you to walk away
I cried lightly
But then...

You stood there
Smiling
Shaking a lil

I moved down a lil kissing your neck
I got nervous
You were shaking more
I moved away
Looking down
Feeling stupid for letting my lust get to me

You asked me 'why?'
I answered
Telling you everything

I started to shake hard again
Luckily
You just smiled
Hugging me
Not even telling me if you felt the same

I cried that night
I cried about how stupid I was

Yet did I know
That the next day
You'd surprise me
By telling me
'I love you'
And mean it the same way I did