Tears of the Moon ~ Confused Beginnings - Chapter 2

"Maryn ! wait up!", Allina caught up from behind, " what's with you these days ? Your walking with your head in the clouds. I've been calling out to you from the past ten lockers and you didn't even budge your head once." With Allina there's no use denying, and she looked more than just a little worried. I tried to give her my best it's-all-okay smile. "Is it about your rents again?" Allina's the only person who knows about it. .all of it, my parents broke up when I was only 3 and that was the best thing that could happen after considering how they spent all their time shouting and throwing things at each other when they were in each others vicinity. But after the split it was like neither of them wanted me, it's not liked they disowned me or something , they readily agreed to finance my education and take care of everything I needed but they didn't love me enough to permanently take me - I was a reminder of their failed marriage. Till I turned 11 I spent most of my time shifting from their houses trying to fit in with their new families, when it was finally decided that I would permanently shift in with gramma. That was when I met Allina; she was the one who pulled me out of my weirdness and lack of proper childhood experiences. With her and gramma's help I was able to finally get happier.

Everything was going fine till I turned 14 and gramma passed away .mom was mysteriously murdered, her killer not yet found. My world came tumbling down. I don't know where I'd be now if it weren't for Allina. I owed her so much. But it wasn't all my oh-so-not-good-past that was giving me killer headaches and blurry eyes. It was in fact something completely irrelevant. Ever since that Eben joined, my weird dreams seemed to be getting worse and it troubled me so much. It was as if they were trying to tell me something, bring back some forgotten memories. But I couldn't make head and tail of it. And it might have been pure coincidence that Eben had the same eyes as the guy who kept coming in my dreams, but how would you explain the same jolt of inexplicable electric emotions that passed through me when I looked into either? He was probably attached to all of this in some way.

But when I replayed the thoughts and possibilities in my head at a sensible time it seemed quite improbable. Maybe I needed therapy after all. But when I poured out everything that had bothering me the past week to Allina, instead of suggesting that I should seriously consider seeing a therapist had this strange look pass across her face for a spilt of a second, it went so fast that I could have almost imagined it, but I knew it wasn't my overactive imagination - but before I could make sense of it she gave me a kind look " It's alright sweetie , I think your just really tired of everything , you just need a proper break with nothing to bother your poor mind . ." , but then she laughingly added, "maybe your becoming psychic, that'd be so freaking cool! Hehe! You should have seen the look on your face when I said that you actually believed it! Silly Maryn!" she laughed and stuck her tongue out at me. I couldn't help but laugh.

I was still laughing when I walked into English class and only after sitting down did I realize his eyes were on me. Ever since he joined and I had the first look at his eyes something in me freaked and I just dodged him carefully the whole week but now it looked like he wanted to say something to me, I decided I would just look and give him a smile and politely turn away. But when I looked at him, I couldn't turn away, it was like my mind was trying to put sense into my body but my body planned to do otherwise, it was like déjà vu. . . as if I'd done it before . . I was beginning to swim in the crystals of his eyes, it was as if they were reflecting something deep within him, something he didn't want the rest of the world to know, something special for me and just me. "Eben, I want you to read out from pg 103 from your grammar book", Miss Bloom's clear voice cut across the room and my silly thoughts. As he turned away, I felt like honestly kicking myself! Something for me and just me?! Sheesh! I sounded like some cracked up psycho who was lost in some fantasy. Maybe I wasn't getting enough sleep. . . .

It was a pretty day , and Allina had a dentist appointment , so I decided to skip the bus and just walk home- though it would be a very long one - and arrange my thoughts and overactive imagination and try to make sense of why I was feeling the way I was feeling. Okay, so I know that I have been having these weird dreams which I think might be trying to tell me something or remind me of something I've forgotten but maybe they were just ordinary dreams and the only reason they kept repeating was because I kept thinking about them all the time , maybe. . . .a sudden chill passed through my spine, and I realized I was being followed by someone.

I turned slowly but all I could see was the dancing shadows on the side wall, still I felt a queasiness start up in my stomach and repented the decision to walk home alone. I looked around, with my luck there seemed to be no vehicles or people around, just me, the street, the trees, the lonely houses and my phantom stalker. I quickened my pace and clutched my bag at my chest. A twig broke beneath my foot and my heart skipped a beat. I looked around, still no sign of any that could loco mote, silly imagination. I looked ahead and tried to walk without freaking out. But then the shadows passed closer this time, brushing past almost. I shuddered, the sudden clouds, casting a veil over the initially sunny weather, adding to the eeriness. Just another two blocks and then home sweet home, I wished for my legs to move faster. Finally I was home, it was already starting to get dark, I fumbled in my bag for the front keys, suddenly aware of the presence behind me! I tried not to scream. Slowly I turned, and came face to face with Eben's beautiful face. . . .