Surrounded by Madness

Surrounded by the nothingness of despair, torn between love and hate of life. I can’t seem to be able to see the light from miles away, soon to be lit up and gone the next minute. I don’t think I can ever be able to sleep those dreamy wonderful nights like I used with him by my side.

As soon as I close those bloodshot eyes, I see nothing but myself. It’s like looking in the reflection, only with my eyes closed and I’m seeing myself in my head. My dark hair beautifully hung over my shoulders, going down to my waist. Now, it’s wild and chaotic, like having snakes for hair. The gloss has faded in them.

My perfect smooth skin so spotless and fine-looking, turns as pale, white as chalk with cuts and bruises covering them. My eyes - the chocolaty brown color you could possibly imagine, making your gaze melt into them, now turns blinded with tears and bloodshot with red lines cracking through them. Shining crystals of pure sadness.

Life is completely drained out of them and all emotions are swimming through them, ready to explode. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t fight back anymore. I’m sick of this madness which is chewing on me from the inside. I have become insane with disturbing illusions in my mad mind. The remains of my sorrow slide down the car of my existence.