Suicidal Thoughts

All these thoughts about death,
Can never leave my mind.
Thoughts of committing suicide,
Are starting to torture me.

Maybe this wouldn't happen,
If I acted like I didn't care about you,
Or try to forget you,
But it kills me just to try.

I occupy myself,
So that way I'm thinking of something else,
But in the end,
I can not escape from these thoughts.
They keep coming back.

What do I do?
If I really do kill myself,
And there is such a thing as an afterlife,
Would these thoughts keep tormenting me?
I can't take anymore of this.

I guess I'll just kill myself...
And see what happens next,
Or I might die of just trying to forget you