Stitched Not Intertwined

I'm so cold and broken,
I feel so dead inside,
I wish someone would realize,
And find the feelings that I hide.

Everyday a smile,
Holds back a thousand tears,
And this mask that I am wearing,
Shadows all of my fears.

I feel like I am worthless,
Like time has stopped and left me behind,
And all these hearts that I hold,
They are but stitched not intertwined.

I just want to fade away in the twilight,
And bleed all through the night,
I am winning my own battle,
But I'm too weak to with-stand this fight.

Sometimes I just want to break apart.
Let the tears flow from my eyes,
I can't live in this fantasy,
I can't play along with these lies.

I'm so tired of breathing,
I hate this sickly air,
I wish I could tell people these problems,
But would anyone really care?

I'm starting to hate this reality,
I can hear the heavens screaming,
Tonight I will end this fakery,
Tonight I will go out dreaming.