Spoil Part 5

"One more month till grade 11" I said as I walk towards my locker with Kelly.

"Yeah... are you having one of your summer party"

"Of course I am, but I don't know when"

"Ohh... if you need any help let me know" Kelly said with a huge smile on her face, it was great that me and Kelly were getting along with each other so well.

"When is your parents moving?" Kelly asked, my parents finally decided that they would go back to Ireland while I finish my study here and live with my cousin who was now 21 years old.

"By end of this week... Hey you want to come over today?"

"Yeah sure we can go shopping"

"I was thinking that we should go to club tonight"

"Didn't you said you would never go clubbing again?" Kelly said making a face, after my sex incident I did promise myself that I would stop going to club and just stay out of any trouble.

"Yeah but I really want to go" I said making an innocent face.

"Ahh.. okay lets go tonight since I have nothing better to do"

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"RICKY!!!" I yelled from the bar, it was almost 12:00 am and I still haven't seen Ricky. Ricky was a guy I met couple weeks ago at the football game. I found him attractive especially with his green and blueish eyes, his hair was black and long.

"Heyy Sandy! Where have you been" He asked giving me a hug.

"Ricky meet my friend Sandy and Sandy this is Ricky the guy I told you about" I said as they both said hi to each other.

"You girls want to join us" I looked at Sandy who seem extremely excited so I said okay and we followed him.

We got to the table Ricky intoduced us to 3 more guys whose name were Jason, Andrew and Scott. They all were dress like gangsters and a had a bad look on his face but I didn't think much of it.

"What is this?" I asked Ricky when I saw white powder on the table, the music was getting louder and louder and people were going crazy on the dance floor.

"Just cocaine" he said acting like it wasn't a big deal

"You do drugs?" I asked, thinking how I didn't found this out before.

When I turn around I saw Kelly making out with Andrew which made me want to get out of here since he looked like a total jerk and I didn't wanted Kelly to end up like me.

"Kelly lets go" I said as I grab her arm and tried to pull her up.

"Common Sandy enjoy!!" She said as she pull her hand away and started to make out with that guy again.

"You want to try some?" Ricky asked as I sat back down and put my head back.

"No thanks" I said looking at the cocaine.

"Common everyone does it" he said while smiling at me.

"Umm.... okay just once" I said I was curious to how it would react and taste. I started to inhale the cocaine, after a while I got this weird feeling I wanted to jump and party, my head was starting to spin but I didn't care.

"LET'S GO DANCE!!!!" I yelled as I went on the dance floor and started dancing, I never felt this alive before.

I don't remember how long I dance and acted crazy but I remember my head spinning really badly and I was trying not to fall down so I sat on the bar chair, the next thing I know Josh came and started to hold me so I don't fall.

"What you doing here" He asked looking at me with concern eyes.

".....Ahhh" I said feeling dizzy and didn't know what was going on after that everything went blank.

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I woke up in the morning my head still hurting and I had no idea where I was. As I sit down I look around, it wasn't my house or my room. I tried to remember what happen last night but I couldn't and I started to cry.

"Hey... what happen??" Josh asked as he came in the room and sat on the bed. I couldn't speak so I just hug him really tight.

"Are you okay? What happen to you last night?" He asked with concern eyes.

"I don't know Ricky offer me cocaine and I took it, then I started to dance and was feeling really dizzy so I sat on the chair and then I saw you coming and after that I don't remember anything" I said without taking a breath and wiping my tears.

"You took cocaine!!" He said with surprise look on his face. I started to cry more since I know I should have done anything like this.

"Who is Ricky?" He asked while he wipes out my tears.

"This guy I met in the football game"

"Why you do these things Sandy?"

"I don't know I hate life, I hate everything!" I said as I put my head back down on the pillow still crying.

"Sandy look at me" he said as I look into his eyes.

"Promise me you won't take cocaine or any of the drugs again"

"I won't I promise, I don't know what I was thinking"

"Are you hungry?" He said as he started to leave.

"Please don't leave me" I said holding his hand and with tears in my eyes.

"Go get change I'll meet you downstairs" He said as he put his hand on my cheeks.

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I went in the washroom and looked at my face, it seem so dead. I couldn't stop crying all I wanted to do was cry.

I wash my face, tie my hair up and put on my mini shorts and a shirt, the good thing about Josh house was I always left my cloths here since in summer or any of the school holidays I would always come here and stay for couple of days.

I went downstairs; Josh was in the kitchen making breakfast, so I sat on the sofa. I was changing channel when I heard Josh come in.

"Are you okay?" he asked as he put the breakfast on the table in front of me and sat beside me.

"ya I’m fine, Josh you must hate me now" I said looking at him.

"Sandy why would I hate you, what’s wrong with you"

"I'm sorry I just thought that I...." I couldn't finish my sentence and started to cry again. Just the thought of me doing drugs was making me upset, this wasn't me I would never do drugs but I did it and that hurt so much.

Josh hugs me and told me to stop crying and just forget about everything.

I started to flip on the channel and stopped when I saw a cartoon call "little mermaid" was coming.

"I remember how I was young and use to watch this with my mom" I said looking at the TV. Josh didn't say anything but he looked at my face.

"Why you looking at me like this?"

"Why don't you talk to your parents, I know you love them but you still act like you don't"

"They hate me"

"Common Sandy parents don't hate their child"

"How is your girlfriend" I asked trying to change the subject

"We broke up"

"Why?"

"Because I realize I love someone else" He said as he came close and kiss me on my lips, I don't know why but I kissed him back

But when I realize what was going on I pulled back and just ran upstairs.

"Sandy I am not joking I really love you" He said as he came in the room and sat beside me.

"Josh you can't love me" I said looking down

"Why not?"

"Josh please don't do this, I love you too but as a best friend"

"Common Sandy, I know you love me and you can take as much time as you want to realize this" I didn't say anything; I had no idea what was going on in my life I felt so lost.

"I got you something" He said as I look up, it was a charm bracelet. The first charm he has already put in which said best friend on it.

"Thanks" I said as I hug him really tight. I couldn't believe that Josh won't be around next year since he was going to university.

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"I'm so sorry about yesterday" Kelly said as we talk on the phone

"Is... okay"

"What is wrong with you, you seem so upset"

"Kelly I took drugs and if that wasn't enough Josh kissed me and said he loves me"

"Josh said what?" Kelly asked as her voice just raise

"Ya... and I had no clue what to say to him, I feel so weird"

"Is... okay Sandy you love him don't you?

"I don't know..." I said thinking about the kiss

"Common Sandy how can you not know" I didn't answer, the truth was I had no clue if I loved him or not I found him attractive and there were some times when I just wanted to be with him but that doesn’t mean I love him.

"When are your parents leaving and coming back?" Kelly asked

"Tomorrow and they are going to come after summer just to visit me since I don't want to go there, actually I should go I need to get some fresh air" I said as I put the phone down and went downstairs.

Sorry about any grammar or spelling mistakes.