Spoil Part 4

After two hours I picked up my cloths and went outside, by now there was no one out, it was 1 in the morning and I decided to go straight home before I do anything else. I called Josh but cut the phone when he picked up I couldn’t tell him what had happen he would never understand it even if he does it wouldn’t be the same. I have to tell someone there have to be someone maybe I should talk to Kelly I thought, yes she hated me but she was the only person I could really talk to.

I was standing in front of Kelly’s house at 1:00 night but I just couldn’t ring the bell after 30 minutes of standing there I finally decided to ring the bell and Kelly open the door while rubbing her eyes as she have just waken up from sleep.

‘What the F*ck are you doing there at this hour?’ she said opening the door, she was wearing blue pijama and white top and was looking beautiful even in her sleeping suit.

‘I want to talk to you and you’re the only person I can trust and tell this too’ I said trying not to mumble words and don’t look messed up.

‘Sandy if you are trying to be friends with me it won’t work I told you I want nothing to do with you’ She looked upset and angry about what had happen one year ago.

‘I slept with a stranger!’ I said trying not to cry but the tears came out of my eyes like I had no control. I had to tell her she was the only person I could trust and tell everything, it didn’t matter if she hated me.

‘Sandy you did what, what’s wrong with you?’ Kelly voice went really high but she try to control it, she seem to be surprise. ‘Do you want to come in?’ she added and as I walk into the house I look around nothing had change everything was same as the last time I came, I wished I could go in past and bring the time back.

‘Sandy are you okay?’ she ask as she close the door of her room and give me a glass of water. ‘Ya I’m fine is just that I had to tell someone and I couldn’t tell Josh because he won’t understand and I could only think of you, I’m sorry for coming into your house like this’ I look around the room it seem like she was really sleeping. I was starting to feel weird for coming like this but I really wanted to tell her everything.

‘Is okay, Sandy you know I can tell everyone in the school about this you shouldn’t have tell me’ Now that was the part I didn’t think about. Kelly was right she hated me, I was going to be humiliated in front of whole school. ‘I’m sorry I should leave’ I said as I started heading towards the close door.

‘No stay listen I’m just saying that your trusting me to much don't worry I won’t tell anyone, I promise’ I looked into her eyes and I felt like she was telling the truth, so we sat down and I told her everything.

‘It seems like you had a fun evening’ Kelly said joking around. ‘Kelly he was a stranger infect I didn't even know the guy name.'

‘Sandy just relax everything going to be fine, and I think you should tell Josh about this he is your best friend after all.’ Maybe Kelly was right I should tell Josh I just hope he wouldn’t look at me differently. We talk some more and I finally decided to get some sleep and stay at Kelly's house for the night. Kelly was a great help I felt much better than before and I was happy that me and Kelly started to talk again.

Josh - sign in

Thursday October 23, 08

J-boy: Hey Sandy

Sandy-love: oh hi Josh

J-boy: what’s up?

Sandy-love: nothing just not feeling well

J-boy: where have you been, the last time I heard from you was 3 days ago and you’re not answering my calls, are you mad at me? Did I do something wrong?

Sandy-love: Josh is not you, I’m just not feeling well and I am not mad at you

J-boy: than why don’t you answer my calls?

Sandy-love: I’ve been busy

J-boy: common Sandy I know you, no matter how busy you are you would call me… So are you going to tell me what’s going on??

Sandy-love: I had sex with some stranger and please don’t judge me I know what happen was wrong I feel bad already

J-boy: You did what, Sandy why would you?

Sandy-love: please Josh don’t be like that you know I wouldn’t it just happen I swear I wanted to stop him but I just couldn’t, that’s why I wasn’t talking to you because I know that if I talk to you I would tell you all this.

Sandy-love: Josh you there??

J-boy: yes I’m just trying to get my thoughts together, so that’s the reason you’re not coming to school?

Sandy-love: Yaa just need some time out

J-boy: Sandy you know that no matter what you do I’ll be by your side forever, just don’t hide anything from me are you okay? You want me to come over?

Sandy-love: If you want you can come, and I’m okay now just needed few days to be alone.

J-boy: okay than I’m coming see you in 20 minutes

Sandy-love: thanks!

Sandy-love has gone offline.

I felt relief telling Josh everything Kelly was right I should have tell him before. When he came over he seem fine with it he was really supported and made me feel so much better, I love having a best friend like him. He took me to church so I can feel better that was the first time I actually went to church, it felt good.