Sometimes I Wonder - Chapter 33

This still doesn't make sense. Jonah and Jackson are Jojo. Is that even possible. Wait a minute. "What about the gifts and candy?" I ask as Jonah brought me upstairs.

"Jackson. He even convinced me that he wanted Tabatha. I had no idea that he was giving it to you. I actually gave you the pack of gummy bears and I wrote the notes in your locker for him. Are you mad?"

"Am I mad? I don't know Jonah. Why did Jackson let me go?"

"Baby girl, he was hurting inside. He couldn't take the pain any longer so we did that whole argument because he wanted to let you go. It was painful for him. It really was. Me on the other hand, I loved you since the beginning. At first I thought you were just another crush. But soon my feelings got stronger around you. I felt protective and it drove Jackson and me both insane that you dated Jesse. I was beyond happy that you two broke up. I was sad that you agreed to go out with Jackson. He gets nervous around you. He didn't mean to say whatever he said." He chuckled.

"You love me?"

"Of course I do. I was there for you from the start. I never wanted to play the brother part but Jackson said he would. Something came over me and I decided to play the brother type. So I could be closer to you."

"W-what about the janitors closet?"

Jonah had a hurt expression. I shook my head. It was Jackson. "I really do love you Dakota but I think Jackson loves you more." He says looking down.

"I don't know what to say Jonah. I always thought you were gay. And with Jackson hiding secrets and what not is driving me insane. Tell me, Who is the real Jojo?"

"Jackson is. I've been so selfish. I wanted to keep you for myself but I can't live with the fact that I lied about being someone that I'm not. But you have to admit. It was pretty nice having all the love quotes. Jackson is a romantic guy."

"Why would he risk losing me? I'd give him a chance."

"What about me?" Jonah asked me and I sighed.

"Just get out." I say pinching the bridge of my nose. "Please."

"But -"

"Just go."

I watched as Jonah threw his clothes on and walked out without another word. I leaned against my bed post and ran my fingers through my hair.

What am I supposed to do? I know Jackson has had a crush on me for decades now and Jonah is like my best friend. He knows everything. I have to admit, I've been getting these feelings for Jackson lately. I can't help but to think of him. I don't want to think about him but at the same time I do.

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"Knock, knock." Said my brothers voice.

"Come in."

He opened the door and sat on the bed across from me. "What happened this morning?"

"My best friends are in love with me and I know I'll have to choose one of them. Is it wrong to love two guys at the same time?"

"It's not possible to love two people Dakota. It's either you love someone or you don't." He says and I sighed. I guess he's right. "Who are you in love with?"

"Jonah. And Jackson."

"Wow. That's a tough choice right there lil sis. Maybe you should go to where your heart tells you to go. I can't have my baby sis miserable. I love you too much for that to happen."

"I'm glad to talk with someone. I don't know who to choose."

"Follow your heart."

"That's so corny."

"I know." He smiled.

I sighed. Who does my heart want? If I chose one guy it will hurt the other. What if I chose the wrong person?

Jonah has been my friend for a long time and he's been there for me ever since I dated Jesse. Jonah is probably the sweetest guy in the world and I love him because of that. But doesn't every girl like that in a guy?

Jackson is the jock. Every girl falls or the jocks. It's part of the school cycle. I don't know about Jackson but he is a great guy. He knows how to make me smile and he isn't a player.

Who should I choose?

Buzz.

Buzz.

Buzz.

I opened the text message and couldn't help but smile.

I could look into your eyes and get lost for hours...