Something I Need To Do??

Just fail to understand how to handle the scenario?
Problem solving ability has come down to zero.
All is well I begin to feel and something crops up.
Once again, I have to tell myself, buck up!

This time round, I am completely lost.
Going all over again and again, I am left aghast.
My happy-go-lucky nature has reached the dead end.
Attempts turn vain in driving away fear, the fiend.

From inside and outside, am all shaken and broken.
Most unusual is that the ambiance around me is sullen.
Conscientious efforts are made to restore my laughter.
Futile are those as it is on the path to slaughter.

I am a self made ambassador for fun and frolic!
Routine’s drudgery and boredom would sound comic!
Humorous narration of incidents is my forte.
This trait in me is going strong even after crossing fifty!

Afraid am I that all of these and more may leave me.
With moroseness fast approaching, they are sure to flee!
My serious, silent disposition creates depression waves.
In such an ambiance an aura of uneasiness prevails.

My special features and personality must not bend and bow out.
Be it any compulsive situation, they must stand straight and stout.
Try I must and device a way to resolve sans bitter taste.
Lest, what is this existence which is purposeless and sheer waste??