Sheer Loser

I never wished to enter battles of two
I doesn't even like to conquer with them too
Suddenly, I was tempted to do so
Because I have no power to say NO!

Now, I'm almost out of my mind
thousands of questions I can't hardly find
Looks like I'm losing my might
I'm almost giving up the fight

I feel like being beaten by a racquet
That my heart had cracked and divided
Feeling the greatest pain ever
That I'll be regretting this forever

I tried to be tough
But my strength was not enough
My heart was getting weak
My body and soul is completely sick!

And though I was red-handed by the other
Still I lied and said for him I will suffer
Thinking that I won't bark up the wrong tree
Not knowing I'm almost losing "me"

I am a sheer loser
I have lost a lover
Because I attempt to lie
I've lost an apple of one's eye.