She Will Be Loved - Chapter 20

Diana- I really wanted it to be romantic.

Ayla- Heck, no need to comment, Ms. Editor....=/ Or should I say Mrs.?

Lky- Not soon....you know? =O

Zy- I am getting use to these long comments from you. =) Lol, okay...I have a facebook too...lol...my girl does too...yeah....okay moving on...and that game is a croc! I have 12 year olds playing better than me on that game!! Moving on!! =P I have black eyes as well. In this chapter or was it at the end...Gracie lied to her. What she really saw the rage Leslie was burning up in her. The whole chapter was about how they lied to one another throughout the course of life. Yeah, beer had to be the counteract. I am surprised though...in fact...that you or no one shoot! Sorry! I am getting my stories confused...I probably spoiled this chapter in the first few sentences =l Yikes! Well in this chapter you'll understand why I added the beer to this scene. I am so use to giving people what they want, I can never lie or say no. I like surprises...=) Heck, I don't celebrate mother's day with my girl. I even forgot her birthday last year. Am I that bad? No, she doesn't mind. Once, I follow her around everywhere and buy her something good to eat, I am good. =] I have never had a brother before. Well, I do but he is like too young and I barely see him. He's four. Last kid of the bunch. Hopefully -.-!! I had written a whole bunch of exclamation points in the beginning but I was like...nah...The girl next door...she just...shows up...she says I'm cute. ^.^!! lol, no I am not going to cheat on my girl with a 14 year old girl who has hair that falls all about her head....My sister is my editor for my stories. She is the second oldest sister. Wait, why I am saying this...maybe she'll answer you...or not...she is kind of mean....it's not you,it's just how she is...=U Actually, I was right and I can tell. I grew up in an all girl household! You can tell these things...!! =]. New Moon was done wrong. I don't think it was because of the guy, I think because people want to make the movies quick and have them out there. One, Edward didn't propose to her in New Moon. He suggested a deal. IN Eclipse, he officially proposes to her. The ending was trying to make things you know..."Come see the next one but it might suck because we can't find a good director." One thing that really irked me was The Lovely Bones. They took the book and made it seem like garbage! I wasted 11 dollars on that stupid movie!!!! 11 dollars could have bought my daughter a new hat that she needs badly!!! Susie doesn't hate Mr. Harvey!! The book is about love and acceptance, grief and closure! It was supposed to be realistic! The author's true feelings about death and life! The Vampire Diaries...another failed success! I watch all the episodes but I am writing my story when I do. Because it's not like the book, people are getting the wrong idea and it's not very mind capturing since I read the books. Hmm, that's cool...I never knew that...about kids and their parents. Uh...................and that's all I gotta say for the most part...lol you lost me at essential amino acids by the acronym MTVHILLP.....lmao!!

Joy- Success! I was right!! =] Paramore is cool. And thank you. I tried hard on this one and that chapter =) ooh Paramore is up next..now that I mentioned it..

Miss. Diana- Yeah it was...=]

Ciriat- Okay first off, I am going to go for the hit. Are you a girl? Each day I pick a new victim. =] I don't want to offend anyone but my family and in that time believed that Germans were enemies because we were Jewish when my girlfriend is German and we lived next door. So...my dad was just a really out of this world Jew. I don't think other Jewish people would consider him a real Jew that why he did things. But growing up, I admired him because that is how I am. I only see the true good in people. I try not to let things get to me. =l Would it be better to see that her name is Madeleine and she is a year old. She crawls and sometimes walk but nothing permanent in that department. She barely talks and she has red hair with black eyes. Yes, she looks more like me...=] Ahh, and you'll see where that foreshadowing takes you in this chapter. Forever can be broken anytime. Eternity is all about the depths in stuff of I believe in. But the way Graham and Gracie live, lying is wrong. In this chapter, you'll see what I mean about lying. Heck, it was to make Graham seem like any other boy in this world. Men, boys or guys, whatever you call them, sometimes go through that mental process when another guy is in the picture. Most authors do it to add effect or open your mind to the problems of another gender sometimes. =J That's why. And I don't classify people or myself that way. I am just me. You're just you. It's how I think but I also like to go beyond that though. When I was going to school, the girls only wanted to shop for new shoes. Shoes, shoes, shoes. That's all they ever bragged about. I was seated next to a group of girls in classes or at gym class. Worst days of my life but then again, it gives me my inspiration and aspect for my stories. These past three chapters (counting this one) are written like this because we know their relationship is like that. Leslie had wished for something she never spoke of it verbally. Seth guessed what it was and somehow....oh oh oh oh oh...too much. I am not going to say anything...!! =] Thanks for reading and feel free to write down your thoughts. I am very shy person in person but through here, I can talk and talk for hours. =]

Ant- Thanks and I will. =]

Priush- Thank you, I like to think this story is nice. I am glad you enjoy it. I will be posting a lot more soon. =]

Greeshma- Yeah, that chapter was written extremely romantic for my part. =l

And thanks to all who commented.
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Chapter 20- Lost Innocence

I feel really sick. I don't know if it's the beer or if I ate something bad. Valerie comments on my sickness and laughs.

"Well, you have a hangover, Leslie." She giggled."Graham as well. If you start throwing up or something, just holler. I am going to go take a shower. Don't want to wake up Graham boy there. He is going to be very crabby."

"Actually, before you take a shower-"

I raced to the bathroom threw up whatever I ate last night. Valerie started to crack up. She buried her face into her pillow. Before I could yell at her, I threw up again.

"Sorry to laugh but it's just that, you finally got drunk." Valerie laughed. "You broke out of your little shell!"

"I don't think it's a hangover-" It was just pouring out of me.

"Maybe you should go see a doctor then." Valerie stopped laughing and looked all serious now.

"Yeah." I took huge gulps of water from the sink.

Seth was drinking his coffee near the back road when we ran into each other. I was on my way to the doctors. I know it wasn't anything serious but I knew if my mother were here, she would yell at me then take me to the hospital.

"Hey buddy. You don't look so good." He smiled, as he sipped his coffee.

"Do you mind walking with me to the stupid campus clinic? I have been throwing up since last night and this morning. In fact, the day before as well. I just didn't comment on it."

"That's serious. Let's go check it out." He clasped my hand and smiled. "I bet you just have a stomach flu or something. John got that yesterday but then he was better."

"Of course. If Spinner were here, he would have raced me to the doctor. He's that protective."

"Valerie has told me the story. She went out that boy named Tim.
She told me about your little incident with...and your friends."

Valerie, you have a big mouth, you know that? Wait, till I get back. I swear, I am putting you out on the curb.

"Incident?" I looked up at him.

"Your friend was a complete jerk to you. How she made you an outcast for the remainder of your school year." He held the door open for me. I can tell Seth likes to hold doors open for girls.

"Oh," She hadn't mention Ricky. That's a relief.

We sat in the waiting room with a whole bunch of different people and fussy children.

"I thought this was a campus clinic?" I whispered.

"It's near the campus but...not really our special clinic. Misleading, yes. Expensive, no." Seth explained, throwing his empty cup in the trash bin.

The nurse with the dirty white slippers called my name. I got up and looked behind me.

"Good luck!" Seth reassured.

The doctor took my temperature. Make me drink this pink stuff and smiled at me.

"You're throwing up for two reasons." She told me looking at her charts.

"Figures." I was standing in the doorway. I wanted to leave and run home to Graham. He's leaving today. My stomach doesn't hurt anymore. I don't want to lose the minutes I have left with him.

"Well, beer is so tasty and great at first but when you drink too much, you get drunk. Then you get a hangover. So, mostly likely, you get a little sicky. That's one reason." She frowned at the chart and then she looked up at me with a lopsided smile. "You might want to sit down for the second reason, Leslie."

I sat in front of her desk.

"You might be shocked at first but the real reason for your throwing is because you have..."

Gracie was wearing a nice pink skirt with a white sweatshirt. She smiled at me as she threw her bookbag over her shoulder. Graham hadn't said two words to me since I got back. I am guessing he just has a headache or something. Valerie was trying really hard not to look like she was sad that they're leaving. Gracie played with her new hairdo. I can tell she likes it. I have to do it for her more often.

"I have school on Monday!" She chirped. "Wait until I show my friend, Cassie. She'll be so jealous."

Valerie looked up from her book. With her eyebrows raised, she said, "They are just braids. What's there to be jealous about?"

"Remember, they're only six. They fight over garbage like that." Graham explained, with a chuckle. He didn't look up from his packing.

Why won't he look at me? Is saying goodbye hard for him all over again. Gracie's eyes looked into mine with sadness.

"Promise to write to me?" She asked, tilting her head sideways.

"Sure." I smiled and Valerie returned to her book.

"Well, we better be off." Graham finally looked at me.

Those eyes burned into mine. Hatred was the first word that came to my mind. But that wasn't it. It was more like hurt in those eyes. What the heck did I do? I don't remember doing anything...What could have I done to-

He stepped forward to me. Maybe he is going to kiss me and everything is alright. Maybe he is just-

"Uh, can I talk to you in private for a minute." He didn't look at me when he spoke. He looked at his feet. "I want to tell you something important."

Then it hit me. I had something important to tell him too! I am still shocked at what happened. I am surprised that I had forgotten about it already.

"Me too, actually." I smiled as I led him into the bathroom and closed the door behind me.

Spinner's words flew through my mind again. "Sooner or later, we all have to face our problems."

Why can't they get out of my head.

"You know, how I said we were eternity lovers and all that last night?" He sat on the edge of the tub.

"Yeah," I smiled. "That was the most important thing to me last night. With the expection of what we did."

"I-I lied to you. I don't exactly meant it. I think we should take a break. You know. From each other." Graham stared at his hands.

Huh? What?

"I mean it's not like I don't love you anymore. I do!" He stood up so fast. He nearly knocked me off my feet. "I love you, Leslie. I just think it would be better, if we took a break. I am not saying we should see other people."

What are you saying, then?

"It's just that there are some things I can't do with you. Like getting married and having kids with-"

"I was just teasing when I said that whole marriage proposal thing! I was half-drunk anyway. We both were. You said-"

"But that's not why I am leaving you."

"So, what are you saying, Graham? You are standing here telling you want a break. A break from what?" I looked at him. "Am I repulsive now or something? Wait, let me guess, you want to run off with Lacey right? She has got you wrapped around her little finger."

"Well you have Seth. You probably want him so bad right? Since you went out on such a fantastic date with him!"

"If you are leaving me because of that, then you are a child! You were the one who agreed to it! I was going to pick you no matter what Seth did! But then again, he isn't the one standing here breaking my heart! I don't get why you want to leave me! It's because I am not longer pretty to you?!"

"Leslie, you are-"

"You are so full of it! You say I am beautiful and that you'll be with me through all the bad times! Hey, you idiot!"

"Leslie! I never wanted things to be like this! I am not breaking up with you-"

"Then you have no reason to take a "break" now do you?!" I was yelling now. I couldn't help it. My emotions were getting the best of me.

Seth had said, "Be careful what you wish for."

Had I really wished for Graham to fight with me like this? Had I really wished not to be the perfect couple anymore? Did I wish for the wrong thing or not?

"I have my reasons, Leslie." He took my hand. "I never wanted this but..."

Oh dear god. I'm dying here.

"You said, you would never let me go! You slept with me last night! So, you wanted some to remember me by before you come over and break up with me! I am done with you! Fine break up with me! I don't care."

"Leslie! You're pissing me off now. You wonder why people lie?! So they don't have to deal with this crap! You're repulsive to me! You were never pretty! I just dated you because I felt sorry! You happy, I said what you wanted me to say."

His angry expression turned to a soft, regretful expression.

"Leslie, this isn't working out the way I planned it to be. You are reading things all wrong. Look, I am leaving. But it's just a break. We can still call each other stuff. I'll call you when I get home, how about that?" He leaned against the bathroom door. "Now, what did you want to tell me?"

It was too late. The tears had become puddles.

"Nothing!" I shoved him out of the bathroom. "Leave! You and your stupid sister! Leave me alone! Forever! No wait, eternity because it's longer!"

As soon, I shoved the door in their faces and locked the door. I collapsed onto the floor. Valerie reached for me.

"What were you going to tell him, Leslie?" She asked wiping my heavy tears.

Who doesn't long for someone to hold you? Someone who knows how to love you without being told how to?

I looked into Valerie sweet brown eyes. "I'm pregnant."

As just as the words left my mouth, my growing gray cloud came back. Only he is black this time.

"Leslie? Hey, Leslie? Are you okay?" Valerie's voice is so distant.

I lost my innocence.
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