She Whom I'll Love Forever

Through early morning's hazy mist,
While most of us are still asleep,
I came upon a shadow cast,
By a memory, profound and deep,
Remorseful, filled with sorrow's sin,
It spun its veil before my eyes,
Opaque, was the sight I seen,
But still so real, as if alive!

I cowered then, beneath the sheets,
As if not seen, cannot be heard,
But still the cold, through me did creep,
Chilling me with whispered words,
That spoke upon a scented breath,
The fragrant, sickly scent of lily.,
A prelude to my ailing health?
Or revenge upon my youthful folly?

I found it hard to understand
The words so soft and gently spoken,
Were they threats, or were they demands?
Or were they a mere informal token,
Tangible as the softest kiss?
I could feel her presence in my room,
Penetrating to impress
Upon me, her infernal gloom!

And I did ponder upon her return,
Does she pose a morbid menace?
If so, then why did my heart yearn
For the comfort of her solace?
For though I fear her apparition,
My melancholy thoughts abound,
To bring tears for she, whom I am missing,
She to whom my heart's still bound!

I looked then, into her eyes,
Dark as pitch and black as night,
The only glint, the tears she cried,
A sparkle of reflective light
That held a vision from the past,
A car wreck on the highway,
And I remember, I drove too fast.
The angel of death took her away!

And in that moment I realized
The true price of my vanity,
I never mourned for she who died,
But mourned my own calamity,
My selfish tears were not for her,
But for my self-defence,
To hide away from my own fear
And compensate my ignorance.

Overwhelmed by deep remorse,
In my deep shame, I wept so hard,
I let my sorrow run its course,
I finally broke my heart,
And this time my sorrow spoke of her,
An epitaph to mourn her loss,
A memory to all we'd shared,
This time, the tears weren't forced!

And then her evanescent form
Did fade into the shadows veil,
Within a moment she was gone,
And left alone, I wrote this tale,
A tale of love, one final kiss,
One final dignified whisper,
To say goodbye to the one I missed,
She whom I'll love forever!