Seed of Hatred

God, I am deeply sorry for all of my corrupted sins
and I know that I need to get out of my head
this horrid feeling of utter hatred and resentment
that would be much better off my chest and said:

I know that it's wrong for one to loath another
and bad to keep what should be left behind
but I cannot seem to forgive and forget
the horror and pain reeking havoc in my mind.

I still remember that cold and dark day,
the day that my burning heart was reduced to ash
and all my love towards her was gone with the wind
as her cruel soul left mine leaving in my heart a deep slash.

The scar remains today and still burns in pain
and yet sometimes I feel so cold and alone;
my soul, once lively and free now gone
and my heart, what's left of it, black and hard as stone.

I still can't even imagine what went through her head
for she had true love, something rarer nowadays,
and she decided to take my fragile beating heart
only to shatter it into pieces by casting it astray.

Once I discovered that she cheated on me
only to go out with one of my own close friends
that is when this deep seed of hatred
began to grow; indeed growing to what seemed like no end.

I still cannot forget that day, even though I want to how could I?
So now the horrid pain that once coursed throughout me
turned to the unforgiving deep seed of hate.
The one thing I learned from this is how to see

the corrupted dark souls of those who only wish
to hurt and destroy true love of many;
never taking their hearts seriously
and I'm not sure if they'll ever love any.

I can only end by saying that I cannot
even begin to describe the hate within but at least now I see
that in the end I can only really rely on and trust,
one single person when everyone else back stabs and runs and that's me.