Screwed Up Romeo and Juliet

How could you not see?
I wasn’t happy being me.
Didn’t you hear me crying?
I covered it up with years of lying.

Why did everyone see a perfect person?
It just made the situation worsen.
Did my life seem good looking in from out?
On the inside I wanted to scream and shout.

Did you like my pretty smile?
I learned to fake it in just a little while.
Why do you think I hated waking up?
I knew from the beginning, life would suck.

Didn’t you care I had my door locked?
Blasting loud the rap and rock.
Could you tell something was different that night?
He knew something just wasn’t right.

When you walked in the kitchen, did you notice the missing knife?
My heart that day was filled with strife.
When you left with your friends, did you hear me scream?
Leaving on my wrists, cuts unseen.

Did you know he called me six times?
I didn’t answer because he would change my mind.
Would you even see the note?
It was so perfectly wrote.

How long before you noticed the open back door?
I left a trail of blood on the floor.
Was that dirt road leading to the water too dark?
I walked up to the ledge of the deepest part.

So, the knife was found in the water?
Maybe you should have searched a little harder.
You believed them when they said my body was lost?
That knife, shoe, and shirt we did carefully toss.

Everyone actually believed it was a live Romeo and Juliet?
Only the story ended bloody and wet.
You never really listened to me did you?
If you would have, you would know what to do.

Why would you think it was all his doing?
When it was only suppose to be me at the viewing.
Don’t remember me telling you that was our special place?
He found me there, ready for death to embrace.

Did the cops say it looked as if I struggled to run from the ledge?
That’s because he showed up, and pulled me back from the edge.
I asked, How did you know where to find me and what I was going to do?
With a smile and a kiss, he said "I love you"