Scream Out

There are so many things I wish I could scream out.
Like "I love you!" "I hate you!"
My mind is drowned with thoughts of rain.
Hopeless days of happiness that'll never be again.
In front of them I lie; I hide my emotions
In front of those whom made me this way.
Who am I kidding
My pain is my fault!
My sorrow is my mistake!
I trusted in life,
I trusted in god!
The days of sunrise will be no more.
I am destined to live in darkness.
My foot on the floor, surrounded be tears,
Flooding my heart,
Flooding my insides.
I cry all alone,
Shaking in my corner.
But "Why?" I ask "WHY?"
Why so ashamed?
Why so dismembered?
Why so alone?
Why so afraid?
I plead for you,
I plead for an answer.
Where is my savior?
Where is my home?