Scared

I begin to scared of a thing
I never even scared before
Something change
I can’t describe it anymore

I realize I’ve wrong all this time
I never think that I’m gonna ask this question
Just like a dream
Everything suddenly turns

Why it feels like I wanna live longer?
Isn’t this life is not where I belong to?
These unpredictable steps shows me that I’ve just misjudge
Was all I said is just a lie?

I’m hiding this day
I don’t want to meet anyone
I need a peace to clear up my mind
No words can explain my feeling now

All the hopes I’m trying hardly to forget
Appear and bring back the memories
I know I was lost but I don’t know it gonna attack me now
Seems I really scared this time

I never know that it will be like this
I can’t stop that nightmares anymore
No you don’t know this feeling
To much scared

I have no strength to carry on
In my mind, in reality everything was destroyed
I don’t feel brave anymore
I can’t open my eyes again

Afraid of the risk but don’t want to let this thing happened again
But I can’t bear it enough
The time when I almost die
I’m scared.