Scare

Are you scare of something? There is a time in your life when you can't do anything but feel scare about what's going to happen. It doesn't matter if your scare about getting in trouble, losing someone, finding someone, scare to face the reality or just scare to perform on stage. There has been a day in everyone's life when they are so scared that all they want to do is wait for tomorrow to come and see what will happen. Today something like this is going on with me, I am scare and I want to see what will happen tomorrow. October hasn't been the best month for me but I'm hoping tomm is the last day for all my troubles and problems. No one can change what will happen tomorrow all we do is pray for everything to go well and that's what I'm doing praying to god for everything to go well. Sometimes you want to sleep so the next day come fast but what if your so scare that you can't sleep? When your scare you have million of questions in your mind and your trying to figure out a answer to them so you can feel better, maybe I'm doing the same by writing this blog trying to feel better, all I want is for this cold chilly and beautiful night to end so I can come face to face with my fear and maybe end it all.

When your scare you need someone to comfort you and tell you everything is going to be all right but sometimes that just doesn't work. I know I'm wrong but I wasn't thinking all I wanted was to have fun but now I'm scare to get in trouble for it, I'm scare to come face to face with the mistakes I had made. This night is soo amazing so beautiful and yet I don't seem to enjoy it all I can think about is tomm what will happen tomm? Sometimes is easier to deal with you fear sooner than later but what if you don't, what if you're late and the fear starts killing you inside. There is a fear that goes away as time passes, I remember when I was small I used to be so scare of going into graveyard but now I'm okay I can face the fact that is just a graveyard and a dead won't come and eat me. I guess the fear I'm feeling right now is not the same because what I'm feeling it can only go away if I face it and that's what's going to happen tomm I'm going to try my best to face my fear and never do what I did.

People who tell you what your doing is wrong are people who you start to hate even though what they are saying is for your own good and you know deep inside that they are right but you just don't want to listen. I guess that's why they say you should keep your friends close and enemies closer because people you hate are mostly right, isn't that's the reason you hate them? I should have listen to those people but I didn't and now I'm scare to face the consequences. People say you should always think positive but how can you, negative is the first thing that comes to your mind. Sitting and reading this is easy but when is actually happening only the person who is going through this can tell how they actually feel. I hope no one ever come face to face with the kind of fear I am facing because belive me is scary.

I'm scare, I'm really scare!! I'm praying to god and hoping for some miracle happen <3