Say It Now

They met for the first time on the staircase as they were being taken up to their classes for the first time. They sat together in the class and got ragged together, but since that day, nothing and no one could separate them, ever. They were best friends since the very first day of college. She was a genius, she had a solution to every problem and she excelled in whatever she did. Others praised her in every step. The other (let's say X), could not imagine what she would have done without her ( say Y)and when she told the other about this, the other exclaimed and said "never say something like that." That taught X to not to depend on someone. Y never mothered X, but she was always there to help her and get her out of trouble (which X often got into) and advise her.

Once, due to certain circumstances, X and Y were no longer in the same class. Y could not give her exams, hence she could not be promoted. X made new friends and she like the Devil, forgot all about the friend who had once been close to her. Y tried reaching out for her, but X pushed her away and went off with her new friends. It was not that she did not care about her, it was just that.....(she herself did not know what it was, but X moved further and further away from Y). Y was facing problems, she wanted to talk about it, and she could do that only with X because there was no one in the world she trusted more than her. But X was nowhere to be seen when her friend needed her. And one day Y left. Forever. Never to come back. X will never forget the message that she got that day... "Y just passed away". All X could do was stare at the message and think "passed away????? You mean she is just unconscious right?" It took her few minutes to understand that her best friend was actually .....(still hurts to say)....dead!

Gone!!! Forever!!! No, that was not true, cause....she had no reason.... X just knew that Y was gone. What happened next, was a like a nightmare for her. A nightmare she wanted to get over soon. For days in fact, she believed (and she still believes) that Y was still alive. In fact, few days later was 1st April and she was eagerly waiting by her phone hoping it would ring and she would hear Y's excited voice shouting 'happy April fools day!!!gotcha didn't I?" She waited, she waited, she waited and she is still waiting.... She recalled those days when she was bad with Y, was not there with her when she needed her the most, she remembered those days she looked away as Y cried, she recalled those days and cried out of guilt. She cried and begged for forgiveness. She wanted to say sorry for all those things, but she knew it was too late. Her best friend was gone.....till date, X has never been able to forgive herself. It's been 2 years, since she lost Y and she still misses her a lot. She misses her every minute.

This is a message for all those who are still waiting for the right moment to say sorry to someone. You never know when you will meet them for the last time. X still imagines Y walking towards her and then both of them hugging each other, promising never to leave each other again.........Never...