Remembering You was Hard - Part 5

**The next morning**
I got up out of bed and thought about everything that happened. I still cant believe it all. my parents are gone and now I have the whole house to myself. WHOO!! part-ayyy!! just kidding. I mean I hated that my parents fought all the time and blamed it on me but there the ones who gave birth to me and now Ryan was gone leaving me clueless. who am I suppose to depend on now. I have nobody. I cant go to school. I don't have a car. I don't have a job. This sucked big time. I wish I had my normal life back..what did I do to deserve this?

I got in the shower and thought about what am I supposed to do with no family,friends,or money. maybe I'll kill myse-no,no. thats too much pain for me to handle. I don't know what i'll do. tears started flowing down my face. I'm too sensitive. maybe April was right I am an emo b*tch. well,besides the b*tch part. whatever.
i turned off the water and got out. I put a towel over my body and went to my bedroom. I put my blue tank top on with some skinny jeans and my black converse. then I dabbed some make up on and went downstairs to the kitchen.
I opened the fridge, got the milk and cereal,and some orange juice.
while I was eating, there was a knock on the door. I went to answer it.

"Is this the parker residents?"
"Yes."
"Okay,here you go. all you have to do is sign this sheet and your good to go."
it was one of those UPS guys with a box in his hand. I signed the sheet and he gave me the light box.
"Have a good day,ma'am."
"You too." I closed the door and went in the kitchen looking for some scissors. I looked through the drawers,nothing. okay..
instead of the scissors, I got a knife. I cut the tape off of the package and opened it. There was a letter inside with a bouquet of yellow roses. I opened up the letter and it said:

Dear halle,

I know I told you that your probably not going to see me for a while. I lied. after I left you, I realized I couldn't do it. it left me thinking that you hated me for not telling the truth. I'm trying to keep it secret but its really hard for me. Look, I have a heart disease that can be treated but I'm not sure if I want it to be treated. ----
I didn't read the rest. I dropped it on the floor and ran outside. I retraced every step that I took from the day Ryan kissed me on the cheek. he had to be somewhere around here. he just had to be. as I was walking,i noticed it was too quiet. I looked around and then heard a big BANGGG from the other direction. I quickly turned my head. I saw nothing in sight. no kids playing ball, no pedestrians walking around, nothing. from that point I got really scared and decided to head back to my house. all of a sudden I felt this punch on my back. it hurt like crazy but I was way too scared to see what it was.

I just ran as fast as I could. I hurried up and got my key out when I was running across the front yard. as I was walking up the steps, I heard whispers and all of this bickering. that made me even more scared. I didn't care if I was having hallucinations. I was just plain scared. I rushed to the door, unlocked it, walked in,closed the door, and locked all the doors. I ran to my bedroom,closed my windows and the blinds, and fell on my bed. I think I drifted off to sleep because something from downstairs woke me up. I was too chicken to walk downstairs so I just stayed in my room. I didn't know what was happening...

BANG,BOOM,BANG!! thats all I heard for the past two hours. I was growing tired of staying in my bedroom. so I decided to walk slowly downstairs. right when I was about to enter the living room the banging stopped .i still walked slowly. this was creeping me out really badly. I walked into the kitchen and I almost fainted because there was this guy. he looked about 20-25 and there was blood all over his face. he walked over to me and started touching my face. then he started kissing my neck. he,then, grabbed a hold of me and I struggled to get out.

"Look, halle. I know you're scared right now but listen to me,okay?"he said fiercely. I didn't answer. I just stared into his eyes wondering how he knew my name.
all of a sudden,he punched me in the throat. a loud scream came out and he pushed me to the wall. he was so close to me that I felt his breath lingering onto me. I started breathing really heavy.
"Come on,babe,you know you want me. I'm attracted to you."
"No." I said in a quiet voice.
"What did you say to me?"

I started to cry. I didn't look at him. I was just wishing someone could save me. I looked up at this dude who apparently stalked me and he had this look on his face that made it seem as if he was about to do something. I screamed as loud as possible,NOOO!!!
I still struggled to get out of his reach but he was too strong for me. he pushed me to the ground as hard as possible. I cried even more.
"You ignorant son of a b*tch." he said. he held me against the ground and started to rip off my jeans.
"No, no,no. please don't do this. I'm not ready." I said,shaking.
"Oh,come on. its going to be fun." he said with an evil grin.
I shaked my head no at him. Then he started slapping me really hard and saying,"you're going to have sex with me!"
"I don't want to." I said still crying.

As soon as I said that, he slipped right inside of me. it hurt really bad because he kept punching me while he was it.
"What the hell do you think you're doing to my girlfriend?" I looked up and saw Ryan at the kitchen door with his eyes bloodshot like Aprils were at the hospital. the dude looked up at him and quickly pulled out of me. he hurried to put his pants back on.
"Ryan?" he said.
"Kasey?" I'm guessing they knew each other.
"This is your girlfriend?"
"Yes, and I don't know who you think you are hurting her like that." he looked over at my weak,naked body. I felt horrible.
"I wasn't hurting her."
"yes you were. don't lie to me."
"I wasn't."

"Explain the damn bruises on her! before you did this, she looked perfect and beautiful. now you f*cking bruised her to death. your lucky I don't kill you."
"Ryan,stop!" I said in a weak voice.
"Halle, just go upstairs. I will handle him."
"No." I said. he looked at me and walked over to me. he took off his shirt and ripped it in the front then covered me with it. he then picked me up and carried me.
"put me down."
"No, halle. Kasey, you stay. if your not here when I get back I will find you."
he took me upstairs to my room and layed me on the bed. after he pulled a blanket over me,he sat down next to me with his hand on my face. he just sat there staring me down with tears slowly falling out of his eyes.
"I love you, halle."

I looked up at him and didn't say anything back. I still wasn't sure if I really loved him yet.
"Why did you call me your girlfriend, Ryan?"
he looked at me alarmed. like, he didn't know what to say.
"Well,if you aren't going to answer me then go talk with Kasey." I said sounding disappointed. he gave me this sorry look and bent down closer to my face. he looked deep into my eyes and said,"I'm truly sorry that I cant tell you much. but please can you just give me this one kiss?"
I gave him a half smile and touched his lips with mine. it was the best kiss ever.
"There. I kissed you. now go,before he leaves."
he smiled really big and left the room.
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