Remembering You Was Hard-Part 7

When Ryan got back, I could barely breathe.
"Ryan how could you hold all of that from me?!"
"Halle, I’m sorry if you’re mad at me. It’s just I didn’t want you to know and then I couldn’t take it anymore. So I found the letter that I wrote a while back and yeah. Please don’t be mad at me. I mean look at it this way, now that you can’t go to school anymore and your parents are in heaven we could live together."
"Ryan, I don’t know. I mean, it does sound like the right thing to do but what about you. You have to go to school."
"Oh...about that I dropped out because I already knew you wouldn’t be able to go to school."
"Really?" I asked with excitement.
"Yeah. But uhh, I know this is going to be kind of weird. But do you want to be my girlfriend? Before you answer, I know you probably haven’t developed feelings or anything. But I just want you back. You’re just very intriguing."
"Wow, really? But I’m not the same Halle."
"...and? You’re even better. After these past two days I realized you’re more amazing than before. It’s just so good to finally see you out and about."
"Well Ryan, i would love to be your lovely wedded girlfriend. "I said with giggles.
He laughed at me and said, "yayyy!!"
I laughed so hard that I fell on the ground.
"Are you okay?" Ryan asked me, still laughing. I nodded my head. Of course I was okay. I was just overwhelmed. When Ryan grabbed my hand to help pick me up, I had another flashback. We were in some place where everything was white and I felt worried. Like, I was scared to lose something very close.
"Uhh, are you sure your okay?" he asked, concerned.
"Yeah, I’m fine." I said putting on a fake smile.
"Hey, do you want to go somewhere?"
"Where?"
"I don’t know. Maybe the park or something. If it’s okay with you."
"Sure." I answered, happily.
When we got to the park, there wasn’t really anybody there. Ryan held hands with me and walked me to a group of trees.
"Wow, this is beautiful, Ryan."
"Yeah...just like you. Oh hey, look at this tree."
I walked to the tree he was pointing at and looked very closely. Halle parker + Ryan Johnson.
"Uhh, Ryan. Did you write that just now?"
He laughed and said, "no, silly. You wrote it before you know, what happened."
"oh, right." I said still staring at it. I really wish that I gained all of the memories from before. It was just killing me knowing that I wouldn’t ever remember these tiny little things that meant something so big towards me.

**10 weeks later**

Me and Ryan have been doing just great. We mess around with each other, we say jokes and laugh, we kiss, cuddle, and do basically every couple does. I think I developed my love for him again and its just great feeling all of this towards him.
Around 10:00pm.
"Hey babe." Ryan said as he sat down next to me on the couch.
"Hey." I said kissing his cheek.
"So what do you have planned today?"
"Oh, I don’t know. Maybe spend it with you, again." I said giggling.
"You’re so cute when you laugh, Halle. That’s one of the things I love about you."
"Oh, really? What else do you love about me?"
"Hmm, how your eyes always sparkle and how your smile just blows me away. I also love it when your relaxed one minute and then you say you’re bored. Then suddenly you get all hyper. It’s just cute. Oh, and when your hair just shines in the moonlight. It’s beautiful. You’re beautiful." I started to blush. "oh and when you blush like that."
I started giggling away, like always. When I finally contained myself, I looked up at Ryan, noticing that he was staring deeply at me.
"What are you staring at?"
"Oh, nothing." he said and with that he lowered his head and scooted closer to me. His fingers caressed my face. My eyes reached his. It was as if he were reading me like I was a book getting really interesting. He grabbed my hands and pulled me to the hallway. Then he leaned me against the wall. I started feeling really giddy and happy. He picked up his left hand and layed it on my cheek so that now both of his hands were on each side of my face. He leaned closer and closer so that our noses were touching. His lips were so angelic like. They inched slowly towards mine. My eyelids closed as Ryan’s did also."I love you." I whispered. He nodded his head. I lifted my arms up and he put them around his neck. Then he lowered his arms around my waist. Right then our lips were moving together. I really did love him. He then released his lip from mine. "What’s wrong?" I asked. "nothing." he picked up my legs and wrapped them around his waist.
"Were going upstairs, Halle. Then were going to fall asleep in separate rooms." He said.
"Why separate?" he gave me a look and didn’t answer. I just looked back wondering why he never let me sleep with him by my side. He then brought me upstairs to my room and laid me down on my bed. He pulled the covers over me and kissed me goodnight.
"I love you, Halle."
"I love you, too." I looked over at the alarm clock. Oh my gosh. It was already midnight. Time flew by.
"Kay, babe. I’m going to the other room. See you in the morning."
"Goodnight."
"Night." He said with that sweet deep voice of his. He turned off the lights, closed the door, and left. I stayed awake for a whole hour thinking. I was so bored and I couldn’t fall asleep. So I got out of the stupid bed and went down the hall. I heard talking in the bathroom so I decided to be nosy and walked toward the door. Then, looked in the creak. I saw Ryan talking on his cell phone.
"April, no you’re not going to see me or Halle again…no I don’t…I love her, April…I might…you know what, I have to go to bed. I’m tired…no…goodbye." He then closed his phone and opened the door.
"Halle?" I looked up at him. I didn’t know what to say.
"Did you just hear that?"
"Yeah. Why were you talking to April?"
"She was just wondering if you were doing okay."
"Oh." I said.
"Have you been awake this whole time?" he asked.
"Yeah, I couldn’t go to sleep."
"Oh, well, I fell kind of lonely in the guest room. You could come sleep with me if you want." He said as he was walking down the hallway.
My eyes grew big and I said yes.
"Okay, come on."
I stopped for a minute. He turned around, confused. "what are you doing?" I didn’t say anything back. I glanced down and looked back up. The next thing I saw was him running towards me with his arms spreaded out like a flying bird. I started to giggle to myself. He started to twirl me around. I laughed really loudly while he had a really big smile on his face. I don’t know. I just felt so giddy. He picked my legs up and threw them around his waist while I had my arms around his neck, once again. He looked up at me and I looked down at him. This was a perfect moment for a kiss. I lowered my head and started to kiss him. He kissed back passionately. I could feel his tongue pushing into mine. This is what I loved about teenage love. You got deep, passionate kisses, the feeling of being happy, getting hugged every minute of the day, everything. He walked into his room and threw me on the bed.
"I’ll be right back." He told me. He walked out of the room and I looked around. There were boxers on the floor and a guitar near the bookshelf. Well, that’s two things I found out. Ryan plays guitar…sexy. Ryan wears boxers not widy tidies…even more sexy. I started to laugh to myself. I was laughing so hard that I fell of the bed. Oops..haha.
"Uhh, Halle. You okay?" Ryan said, standing at the door.
"Yeah." I bursted out a big roar of laughter. Ryan was laughing with me. I was so caught up laughing that I didn’t realize Ryan was wearing nothing but a towel near his waist. Ryan stopped laughing only because I stopped. He came over to me and threw me back on the bed. At that moment, he climbed on top of me and I knew what was about to happen.
"Ryan?"
He looked down at me. "Halle, I have something to ask you."
"Okay." I said worried with what he was about to ask me.
"Are you ready?" I looked at him with a blank face."I have condoms." He said. I nodded yes but I didn’t know if I was really ready or not.
"Halle, I know this is your first real time, so I’m going to go easy on you. Okay?"
I nodded yes again. Within seconds, I started to moan. It felt so good, but then again it hurt.
"Do you want me to slow down or is this good?"
"Ryan…(moan)…its good." the only noise in the room was me moaning and Ryan breathing.

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