Remembering My Final Thoughts

I sit here all alone
And I remember
All the pain in my life
All the suffering I had
And I ask myself
Why did I live through it?
Why did I bother?
If I had died
I would not have experienced
All this pain and suffering
It would not have existed

So I pick up some rope
I wrap it around me
Right the way around my neck
With one end on my neck
I head towards the window
I walk slowly knowing my fate
I look down and see the drop
And I know this is what I want

I open the window and step outside
Then I look down
I fall
With but one thing still connecting me to the room
The Rope around my neck
And I know this is my fate
The rope begins to tighten
It has run out
And with one massive click
My neck is broken

I feel pain
And then I feel nothing
I feel alone
But I have always been alone
So with one last thought
They will never understand
What it was which drove me to this?
They will never understand
They will never know