Razorblade Romance

Its unbearable to know he's the one holding you & stealing those kisses from your lips . While the one who would die for a smile . Stands alone in the shadows . Crying in the dark wondering what follows ;
Will it be a happily ever after or a tragic Romeo & Juliet , where only romeo falls . Listen to your hearts calls & tell me .. Won't you die tonight for love ? Or will you just rise above & forget about what I gave up for that grin ;
Yes .. This is my sin.. & I understand it.............my wrist will bleed & water will drown my lungs . Or will it be the fate of firing guns?
Undecided I stand waiting for you to give me your hand .. If that is what destiny holds .. Then everything & much more that is mine will be yours .. But if fate takes you away then I would see all you did was play .
Right now you laugh & tease the boy in love.. Put his mind to ease & simply say yes .. If only I knew that I would be remembered . Then my battle would be won .. Because I would know I have a spot in your heart .. & yet the reality is you hit my pictures with a dart.
Why you did this I will never know , .. Now my nights last a life time.. Take me now that I'm in my prime.. & I will not let you down .. Mentally nor physically ..
You run in my dreams where it all isn't what it seems.. Slowly I begin to realize that this love has no future ... & as it kills me in the inside.. I see the work is not complete.. As I slowly bleed in the inside I understand my tragic ending ..
Not everyone has a fairy tale love.. Not everyone gets what they want out of life .. You slowly stab my heart with that knife .. & there.. That instint I realize .. I know what must be done.....
I will willingly go to the infernal below .. Just as long as I know that one day I will see your gorgeous glow.. There I will pay for my mistakes .. But most of all I will pay the highest price .. Love is a gamble .. So roll the dice ..
I am a insignificant soul .. Who never reached his ultimate goal .. I've reached my point of sheer frustration .. My patience is gone..
Slowly the sun rises & I see the dawn .. It reaches out to me & offers a new future a different fate .. As I reach out to grab it . It disappears & slowly whispers in my ears .. That my life line is cut short . & that this cannot be changed ..
Please understand my heart is deranged & that I cannot control it .. This is a simple cry.. A reaching out.. Not for help but for love..
I cannot blame you for my being miserable .. I was never a happy soul .. I was always dark .. For I knew I would never leave a mark ...
This is not fake love ..even though it seems as it is , this is far beyond obsession , by far you are my most prized possession , except you are not mine ..
This is a special romance which only I feel , I know this is real . No one understand this . I do not understand this ..
I can deal with the way you respond to me .. Even though it hurts ... a million nights I sleep wishing never to wake .. Each day to me now is fake ..
I pray to his majesty that this is all a dream .. A nightmare which has yet to end .. I can't live on like this..
I do not give up because of what others say .. Because in the end he will make them all pay ,
I lay alone in the dark wishing to have you by my side , kissing you , loving you like no one would .. If you let me I know I could. But all I can do is cry for the chance that I know I will never receive ..
If you knew that I felt when I had you in my arms .. Then surely you would fall for my charms .. But I cannot explain it ,
Let me be so dead & gone , so far away from life . Close my eyes & hold me inside . Your all I ever wanted. Just you, my love .
I can't fault this nor do I want to for each moment of this was torture ,was my ecstacy.
My life has just begun, but already I am wishing for a escape from this world. I've waited for so long for this moment to come, you will be my final thought, I tried, I fought, & I lost. This life isn't worth living. Strange, what desire makes foolish people do.