Psychotic

I sit on a curb
The skies are gray
I sigh" Looks like it's going to rain"
As a drop hits the ground with a splatter
"Did that belong to my eye or the sky?" I wander
The rain sings a static noise
The very sound is killing me
"WHY WON'T IT STOP!" I scream
Am I crying,When did I start?
I don't care, I'm already soaking wet and I don't have an umbrella
I'm cold and alone
Everything will be the same
"How are you" I say with a mask on my face.
Just like everyday, so on and so forth
My heart can't take these lethal beatings
I can't take it anymore
It hurts
I've lost my mind, I'm insane
I so far lost and I won't be able to return
Why Can't You See IT!
The pain in my eyes
I need to go, I have to leave or I'll never get better
I'm scaring myself
The voices in the shadows
Whisper deadly things in my ear
"END IT NOW!" They whisper
The pressure is to strong
And My heart starts to race
It's a deafening song
"STOP IT! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I scream
They smile" END YOUR LIFE NOW! /BY YOUR OWN HANDS!"
They say it over and over
Then everything goes quite
All the noises, the voices, everything gone silent
"OH God, What have I done!" I whisper
The Blood is spilling from my body and that's all i can see
I must be insane
Someone Help!