Premonition's Say

Left to myself all over again!
There is no one to call as mine.
Only child is living far away.
In pursuit of education, he has gone a long way!
Husband is in a continent where all seem very alien.
Sociability has always been my favorite domain.
Living in that part of the world gave me sleepless nights.
That sad lonely life scared me out of my wits.
For my happiness, my husband let me go.
It’s all about compromise, we could follow?!
Back in my homeland, there wasn’t any difference.
No peace here too, even though this was my preference.
Living away from husband I do not like much.
That foreign land is turning me insane is a grim truth as such.
Am I being unreasonable, I have started to feel?
Answers to confusing and conflicting questions, I am unable to deal.
The guilt of unfairness to my family and me is slowly creeping in.
Inability to handle myself is eating me from within.
The hurricane blowing inside me is scattering my self confidence.
I am on a run to collect its pieces and fight my diffidence.
Being unsure about myself is tempting me to hide behind my spouse!
Even that best place cannot stop the storm from its chase!
Living without purpose is getting to become a burden.
That activity which would hold my interest is in its den.
To pull it out from there does seem to be a herculean task?
Equally true is that its accomplishment is an order from my life’s desk.
I am left with no choice but to obey.
Its disobedience spells disaster is my premonition’s say!