PPD & Me
I figured something out about myself today. Indulge in my problem. Paranoia, deceit, pain, searching, self-reliance. Paranoid Personality Disorder, how brilliant. Should I label this a 'disorder'? My paranoia always shows to be correct.
Sometimes I wonder how I can be so cold.
It's almost as if I have no emotion.
I don't feel.
I don't hurt.
I don't cry.
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I say things I don't mean, I am constantly trying to find a hidden message in what others are saying.
I'm paranoid.
I feel like people are lying to me, talking about me, trying to "get" me.
I would love to have a close relationship with someone, but can never seem to do it.
People are against me.
No one is my friend.
Trust no one.
Everyone is lying, everyone is out to get you.
There's a hidden message in every benign comment, or action.
Keep looking, keep being paranoid, keep hurting people.
Why do I feel this way?
And why do my feelings always end up true?
Why do I feel isolated, why am I so odd with certain things?
Why do I distrust and suspect my friends?
Are they my friends?
Why do I feel the need to pick at everyone and accuse them of malicious doings?
It's almost as if I have no emotion.
I don't feel.
I don't hurt.
I don't cry.
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I say things I don't mean, I am constantly trying to find a hidden message in what others are saying.
I'm paranoid.
I feel like people are lying to me, talking about me, trying to "get" me.
I would love to have a close relationship with someone, but can never seem to do it.
People are against me.
No one is my friend.
Trust no one.
Everyone is lying, everyone is out to get you.
There's a hidden message in every benign comment, or action.
Keep looking, keep being paranoid, keep hurting people.
Why do I feel this way?
And why do my feelings always end up true?
Why do I feel isolated, why am I so odd with certain things?
Why do I distrust and suspect my friends?
Are they my friends?
Why do I feel the need to pick at everyone and accuse them of malicious doings?
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