Populars vs. Peoples

"Chris....." Nathan groaned under me. "Please stop teasing me babe." He groaned. I laughed a breathless girly giggle. "Why?" I questioned him. "Cause I know how this ends and you never do it." I brushed back his chestnut hair. I wasn't really going to go all the way but this felt super nice. I rode him even though the thin fabric that made both of our pants. I know this sounds whorish but it was so good and we were both seniors. Why not? As long we didn't really do it I wouldn't get you know ... pregnant.
I quickly forgot that fact before I got turned off. "Ahhh......" an easy sigh rolled off my tongue. "Babe....." he couldn't continue but I knew he was going to beg me to stop before his hormones kicked in. too late, I won yet again. His hands cupped my lower back against my naked skin. My hands wanted to be all over him, they just couldn't decide what to do.

After our hearts thrummed crazily we just laid next to each other. "Sorry Nathan" my eyes twinkled behind the meaningful words. "No you're not." He got off the bed so fast I couldn't react. I tried trapped his back into my bare chest. I kissed the top of his shoulder longing. He didn't move, as if my small grasp could very well hold back the star quarterback on the football team. His sun kissed skin compelled me to do the same the sun does. Kiss him sweetly.
"Babe, I-(he paused while he thought of something better to say.)-I really do love you. With everything I got." my neck tingled. His words swelled within my heart and filled with love. I have always loved him, since fourth grade. (Not the same kind of love.) still that awesome he was one of those first crushes. My only.

"And what about it?" I said trying to grasp what was left of my dignity. "Only that I want some, you know, space." Nathan held his head down, letting wild hair hide his face. "What? L-like breaking up? Are you breaking up with me?" I was dumfounded. My mind was thrumming hard and I suddenly felt subconscious. "No, just space babe." Nathan did bother touching me in a conforming way. It was utterly odd.

"Why? If it's about this I'll stop. I SWEAR." Waiting for a sign that he had heard me in his somber eyes. I knew it was a little mean to tease him but it was only teasing right? Why was he taking things so seriously? That wasn't like him at all. I knew him best and he was carefree, immature, and sweet. (Even if that combination was made him a doofy jock with bad grades and a perfect smile that cause my heart to beat irregularly. ) That was him. Not this guy with sadness and a strange look in his chocolate eyes. "It's not that-not much but, mostly that I well... you know the scholarship." 'I think he's lying to me. No I won't think that.' my mind snapped back.

Or was it my ego. "The scholarship that you turned down over a week ago?" My voice was surprisingly level-headed while I tugged on my shirt. "I-um-" he paused then a smile broke his handsomely boyish face. It wasn't the normal smile, this was different but I simply didn't want to be pessimistic. I chose to ignore it. "I reconsider it." He leaned over the small distance and pecked my cheek. "Just a little while. Like two or three weeks maybe." He shrugged; that odd smitten grin on his face. It looked weird. "Okay, but that seems like a long time." I concealed my concern. He already got up to leave not looking back. That was odd it but I didn't want my mind to mention it too.

It mustn't be him; it MUST only be a figment of my imagination.
I glanced out the frosty window of my bedroom to see him drive away. My safe resort was still there; he looked the same. It was him (that much I was sure of.) and the horrible thoughts that rang in my mind meant nothing.
Like useless rain, it could only drown the truth. (What I thought and clung to as the truth.) I threw the oncoming and passed thoughts of betrayal. I knew Nathan wasn't like that; he wasn't the kind to cheat. Plus I was his love, we were always dating. Always together and that was the truth.