Pain Runs

Me being kind and always gotten me misunderstood I am not ghetto nor am I hood I am just me, pain runs deep in my veins I had a lot that I had to over come in order for me to stand where I stand today, those that weren't meant for me I can no longer see I call them far-weather friends they stood in my face told me lies like I will hold you down and yet when I started dealing with me they were nowhere to be found, they said I pushed out pain on them and made the rain feel like it was steal fall upon their heads, but I also tried to show the good that was hidden deep within but no one took the time to understood my fight hell this hasn't been easy for me either losing out on what was supposed to be the greatest gift to me in life having to walk away and call it quits on so many things in life cause stuff don't work out right, not many knew that the sunlight burned my eyes due to the many tears my soul had cried or about the countless sleepless night I spent tossing and turning in my bed because of the fight that was rages in my head, this inner peace that I have now found came at price that only I could pay now a new me has emerged but I now stand alone because the weather I produced turned everyone's heart to stone, dam it tell me who will or could love me now I know God will but he holds my spirit but I need someone to hold my heart because going through this has made me weak no not in my thoughts because I have faced that bullet and ate it whole where I am weak at in my heart love is what I need cause my supply has run low do to the pain of yesterday running so deep.