Open Book

I stood here alone
Waiting anxiously by the phone.
Are you planning on calling?
Or should I just give up?
I wanted this to work out
But you never pitched in.
All my feels spilled out for you
But you kept your bottled up inside for way to long.

And this is how I know
You walked all over me.
This is how you see
We just couldn't let it
Flow away like a river
Gone forever.
I wish I could see
Your face again
And apologize.

But wait, that's what you want me to do.
I'm sick and tired of all the meaningless lies!
Tell me you love me, tell me I'm the one.
Stab my back
multiple times.
I'll still believe you.
Why do you have a spell over me?

You made me feel like death,
A permanent solution
For a temporary problem,
Was looking like the only way out of this nightmare.
Are you happy? I finally admitted what I was afraid to say, cause I knew you'd walk Away from me.

Your presence is what's killing me.
But my body, it just can't say no.
But I know I'm slowly dying.