One Last Kiss Chapter 9

When I entered school I saw Amar. He smiled seeing me. I knew it was a good sign althought I was still hurten after all his lies.

"Hi" I said. He gave me a look that was supposed to tell me that we shouldn't being talking at school.

"I don't care. Can I talk to you outside for a second?" I asked with a serious tone. He was really surprised .

"Sure" He said and we went outside."Is there anything wrong?" He said staring up at me.

"Yes" I glanced

"What? Talk to me?" He said. "And by the way Caroline catched me this morning and was keeping asking me about us? Have you told anyone about us?" He was a little bit angry.

"I might of" I said

"Why?" He opened his eyes wide sounding surprise.

"I'm fed up of your lies" I said trying to calm myself down.

"What lies?"

"You know what lies. Just think. Do you even like me?"

"But I wasn't lying to you. What was it?" He asked. I took a deep breath.

"I'm not stupid. I know about your marriage arrangement" I said. I felt like I wouldn't be able to stand any more. Every single minute was making me feel miserable. I didn't know what was going on with me or what I was doing. I had to tell him that I was pregnant and we are going to have a baby but instead we started whole new conversation or I would say - something new to argue.

"Who have told you this?" He sounded like he never expected me to find out.

"The people" said

"Amar come here!" His friends behind my back were shouting

"Give me two minutes!" He shouted back and turned staring at me" What people? I need to know. Please tell me" He said. It felt weird. We have never argue before and I've never seen him angry.

"It doesn't matter. Why have you being lying to me behind my back?" I saw the pain inside his eyes. He was mad and deeply touched. He was struggle with the answer. Something was very wrong and the feeling was getting worse.

"But what people? Tell me?"

"I'm not going tell you this. Besides whole college is talking about it. I was so mad that I am always the last one to know everything." I said with an anger.

"So you believe what people are saying? Why haven't you come up and talk to me before making such a big move against me?"He started to shout. I felt the tears inside my eyes.

"Stop blaming me for this! It doesn't matter anymore." I tried not to cry but it was too painful to hear. Well .... all I can say is that this conversation didn't went exacted as I planned .

"So do you want to break up with me just like that? Does the words 'I love you' don't mean anything to you anymore?" I saw people outside staring at me.

"I don't want to break up with you. It`s just I'm hurt. I'm physically hurt."

"Don't be." He said calming down" Listen I talk to you tonight ok? I ring you or you ring me whatever" He said

"Ok" I said and started walk towards the school entrance. Oh God ... have I gone mad? I just wanted to talk to him and instead I attacked at him while he was trying to defend himself. Its not how it supposed to go. Its not. For the next of the day I waited for his call.

I lied on he sofa with a phone in my hand and felt tied. I rested my head when the phone rang. Its Amar! Its Amar! Something inside me snapped.

"Hallo?" I picked up

"Hi its me" I've heard Amar's voice.

"Hi, listen I'm so sorry for acting like that today morning. I didn't mean to start this conversation that way." I said and took a deep breath.

"It's ok. Listen are you all right?" He asked

"Sure why?" I was wondering what was he on about

"Caroline have told me." He said with a calm voice

"Oh God did she?" I said and felt stressed.

"Why didn't you tell me that this morning?" He asked

"I tried but then you came up with whole other topic and we started to arguing" I said

"So you really are?" He asked. I start to walk across the room nervously.

"Yes. I'm so sorry. I knew you didn't planned this. I haven't being even considering ..."

"I know. Listen I'm so sorry I haven't told you about my marriage arrangement. I know it was so unfair of me and I would really love to get back to you so if there's anything you need" He said

"So you're really all right with all baby thing?" I asked

"Are you going to keep it and raise?" He asked

"Yes. I want to. Will you be involved?" I persisted.

"As long as you are. I mean of course when I've first heard it I freaked out and i'm still scared but you are going to need a lot of support and I just want you to know that I will be here for you. Whenever you will need me." He said .

"That's so sweet. Thank you" I felt my heart warming up" But ..."

"Yes?"

"But again what kind of relationship do you want us to have if you are getting married soon?" I asked. It was the bt that hurted me the most.

"I think ... But I think I will be able to cancel this for you" He said

"Really?" I was surprised" How?"

"You are going to have a child with me. Maybe I will ask my parents to marry you instead?" He said" Will you want this?"

I freezed for a moment.

"Yes. I do. Please do this. It would be great. Thank you" I said.

"I'm so happy" He said

"So you promise?" I asked again to make sure I got this.

"Yes I promise. Just give me some time"

"Great." I said

"Have you told your parents yet?" He asked.

"No. Not yet. I'm afraid they're going to kick me out. They have been always complaining to me about you. I'm so scared Amar. I don't know how to talk to them" I cried

"We'll figure something out. Don't worry"

"Thank you" I said. I thought it was over. I really did.

"So why haven't you told me anything about the marriage thingy? As far as I know you knew about it since before we started going out" I said

"I know. It was hurting me. Just don't get this wrong." He said

"What?"

"At first I've never could picture myself with you. When you agreed to go out with me after all I was so happy. I never knew that the relationship between us will last so long. I thought that it was a short romance when I fell in love."

"You did? Oh my god I cannot believe"

"Yes I love you. I've never felt about anyone else the way I am feeling about you. For the first time in my life I am not interested in sex bit. For the first time in my life I want our love to grow and now when you are pregnant - don't you think its a perfect opportunity for us to get together for good?" He asked and took a deep breath.

"Yes I do think so." I smiled.

When we finished talking I fell a sleep dreaming about something I could barely understand. On the next day the rumors about me, Amar and that we are going to have a baby spread out across the school. I couldn't believe that all of the sudden everyone have been keeping about this. I got used to people who were saying

"Oh you preggy" or "Why Amar? You could do so much better" I hate those people.

A week after Amar rang me to ask how I was doing and have told me to meet him in a luebellie park. I went there and enjoyed the landscapes. When I saw Amar walking towards me.

"Listen I have to tell you something." He began to say with a serious tone.

"Yes? What is it?" I had a feeling like there was something wrong.

"Just so to let you know its very hard for me to talk about this stuff."

"It doesn't sound good. Is something wrong? What do you want to talk about?" I started to get nervous. It wasn't a good sign.

"I have to get married." He said

"What? But you said ..."

"I know. I did"

"I cannot believe. Have you been lying to me?"

"No. You were right. No matter what you do you cannot win. Its impossible for us to be together." He said.

"I don't want to hear that. What do you mean its impossible? Nothing is impossible only if you want this"

"Someone have told my parents that I knocked you up"

"Oh God.... did you tell them?"

"No. I have no idea who it was. They are sending me back to Pakistan and I cannot do anything about that"

"How? Fight for it"

"I cannot. Its too late. I have to go there anyway. I know what you must be thinking"

"You don't know anything about me"

"I know you well enough to know that I'm going to miss you and cannot imagine being there without you one day" He said. I bit my lip and the tears started streaming down my face.

"Please don't say you are going to leave me like this" I said. It was an emotional time for me. I couldn't believed what was happening.

"I wish I could do something but I hardly escaped from my house to tell you this. My family is probably looking for me right now.

"So how soon do you have to go there?"

"To avoid more disappointments from my side my parents booked the tickets and I guess I will be living in Wednesday next week"

"Wednesday?!"

"Yes"

"I don't want you to live" I cried

"So I do"

"Please don't say you are going to leave me like this"

He said nothing

"You knocked me up and ..."

"Please don't make this any harder than it already is" He was begging me

"You bastard! I cannot believe you are doing this to me." I started to hit him in the arm.

"I have to. I made a promise and I have to keep it" He said struggling.

"This is not about keeping the promise. Just follow your heart for a second"

"I have to go" He said and started to move.

"I don't want you to go! Don't I mean anything to you anymore? Or you just took advantage of me?"

"No. I love you and I wish I could stay with you forever but its just too hard. I have to think of some stuff"

"What stuff? Common talk to me!"

"About what?"

"You knocked me up and now you are leaving me" I started to cry

"No don't cry. I don't want to see you crying" He grabbed my arm. I sat on the kerb.

"I'm having your baby. I cannot imagine doing it by myself you have to help me"

"I wish I could but there's nothing I can do. It would be different if my parents wouldn't find out. Now I'm trapped"

"You not. You can escape. We can move out somewhere else"

"Please .... calm down. I love you but my family will never let me be with you." He said

"So you are saying that you want to break it off just like that?"

"I don't want to break it off" He said

"So why do you have to leave? I don't understand"

"This is what I have to do. I cannot cancel my marriage arrangement. Its too late I don't see how its going to work"

"Please don't do this ..."

"You know what? Every single minute talking to you is making me feel more miserable. I cannot deal with this anymore." I said standing up, wiping my face from tears and started to move.

"Common what are you doing?" I saw him running towards me

"Leave me alone. I hate you!"

"Stopped!"

"Back off! I cannot look at you anymore"

"But ..."

"Just leave! Why don't you say its over! Do it now ! Say its over!" I exclaimed and turned to face him

"Come here"

"Don't touch me!"

"You know what? I'm gonna do it - Its over !" I've heard him shouting

"No!"

"I said don't touch me !"

"Okay - Its over! I want you out of my life" I started to run back home. I couldn't believe that this is actually how it end. I couldn't believe that everything in my life was turning against me.

On the next I've gone to school. I wanted to tell Amar how sorry I was for overreacting yesterday but he wasn't at school. I knew it was too late. He was leaving tomorrow.

I runned up to his sister

"Hi I know you might not know me but wheres Amar?" I asked.

"He's leaving today" She said

"What? He didn't supposed to leave for another week"

"I know. My parents thought it might be much better if he will leave straight away"

"Look. I need you to tell Amar something, okay?"

"Okay"

"I need you to tell him that I'm so sorry and that I still love him" I said" Can you do this for me?"

"Ok I will tell him"

"Thanks"

So it was over . It was really over. For the next couple of weeks I felt devastated. I couldn't believe that Amar left me. I thought that at least baby will keep him close to me. I felt bad. Betrayed. For a moment I was struggling whether he even loved me. All he should of have done was to tell those parents to go to hell and be free.