One Last Kiss Chapter 16

While kissing we have moved towards the door.

"Wait what are we doing? You and I was just making up?" I said. I looked at Amar like in the old times, caught him staring at me. His eyes were always soft with a light smile sitting in a corner of his mouth.

"I waited for you for so long" He said and touched my lips. It felt so right. I didn't disrupt this wonderful moment anymore. We have moved to the bedroom kissing. He opened his arms making me feel like I`m in heaven. I walked over him and melted in his arms.

I am so nervous. Mmmmm it feels so good.

For a moment I felt weak by his looks. By being with him in the same place. Touching him. Feeling something I was longing from the time he left me. I took my shoes off gently and throw them away. Amar helped me to take off my dress. I felt his hand slowly touching my arms. I turned to face him and then he was exploring my body so passionately like no one else did before. It felt so good and right. Nothing was wrong with it! Nothing!

I loved the feeling when his arms were around me .It really made my day.

Why did it feel so perfect? Why all of the sudden I felt so safe?

I woke up next morning dreaming. The smile appeared on my face before my eyes were even open. I stretched my body and put the hand on Amar's bit when I realized that he wasn't there. I opened my eyes and looked around the room when I found a note Amar left me on the pillow. I breathed out with a feeling of relieved and read the note:

"I Went to get some food. I'll be back soon. I love you"

I smiled and sat on the bed. I surrounded my body with a quilt. I felt so comfortable. I sat in a silence for a second, reading the note over and over again when I finally moved to dress. I sat down to relax. I looked at the clock. It was already 11 o`clock. I went to the kitchen and sat in the chair when I've heard Amar coming in.

"Hi" He smiled.

"Hi" I smiled back. He put the bags in the table and moved towards to kiss me.

"How have you been sleeping? I didn't wanted to wake you. So I went to get something to eat. Are you hungry?" He said

"No" I said." So it was real" I began to say. I saw that he was wondering what I was up to." Between you and me. What happened before you left to Pakistan" I smiled

"Yes. It was" He glanced" So what are you going to do Julia?" He asked

I looked at him for a second not knowing what to say .

"I don't know" I said unsurely

"I thought you loved me" He said

"Stop! I do love you. I love you so much but its too late" I said.

"It's not too late. Stay with me please" He moved and touched my arms. I felt my blood freezing. Have you ever had one of those times that many questions pop into your head? I was lost. I didn't know what to do.

"I've got a fiance waiting for me at home" I said

"But what about the night we spend together? What about this memories? They happened you know"

"I know they happened but you left me before. I spend so many nights crying to myself at night. I don't think I can do this again." I cried" Adrian is going to be crushed out when he will find out. He love me"

"And I love you. Doesn't it mean anything to you?"

"Stopped! I cant take this anymore"

"Was that your plan?" He said

"What plan?"

"The plan. You slept with me and now you are going back to your fiance like nothing happened? Is that what you wanted?" He said

"I gave him a promise when he gave me a ring. We are supposed to get married by the end of next week"

"So you didn't exactly followed this promise." He started to make his point" I mean look if you really love him as you are saying you do, you would never sleep with me - don't you think?"

"I don't know what to say" I said and started to calm down.

"Just do something for me. Just follow your heart. Tell me - what is your heart telling you?" He asked

"I don't know."

"You should. Just tell me what? What did you thought? Did you wanted this to happen?"

"Maybe. I don't know"

"I tell you what - if you want to leave just leave but when you are going to do this I will hate you. So if you want go just go."

" What ?"

"I've lost you once before. I think I can do this again"

I could read that inside his mind he was saying

How can you forget that night? Can't you remember anything?

I looked inside his eyes, took my purse and left.It was hard. Really hard. I went to the hotel and by the end of this day got back home when Adrian was already waiting for me.

"Are you all right?" He asked. I began to cry in his arms althought I never said why. I couldn't. I could feel his breath on my face.

I couldn't sleep this night as I knew it was over between me and Amar. I knew what we had was real and that there's a possibility that I love him more than I love Adrian but I couldn't leave Adrian. He was so looking forward to everything we planned. I don't think I would do this to him. Not now when everything was ready and in 5 days time we are going to leave to get married in Miami. It was too late to do anything. When I had a trouble I always tried to pick the easy way out. However in this situation there was no easy way out. No matter what I did or would do somebody will get hurt. And this time it was Amar.

I couldn't believe how much I changed. Yet two years ago I thought that Amar was my whole world. It was hard for me to rub off all of this memories that I left behind when he left me. Now when I had a chance to be with Amar I totally blew this off. I tried to picture my life with Adrian. I hoped I made a right choice.

I looked throught the window. I saw the moon. It was so beautiful. All of the sudden I recalled what Amar said to me the other day when we were sitting in the park.

"Always remember - Every time I'll be looking in the moon I'll be seeing you"