One Last Kiss Chapter 14
Life in reality.
After the engagement when we get back home I went to my parents to share all this excitement. I went to the dinner with them and share all this important news.
"Oh honey. You're going to make a beautiful bride" My mum said .
"Thank you !" I said. I knew I was waiting for this day in my entire life but somehow I didn't feel entirely happy.
"This is going to be a high celebration isn't?" My mum got excited" Have you thought about where are you going to get married ? "
"Oh mum not .." I didn't finished saying it
"I was thinking Miami?" He said
"Miami?" I asked with excitement.
"Yes Miami"
"Oh my God really? Its like a dream" I exclaimed happily
"Only better" Adrian said
"I love you" I said and we kissed" So you have been thinking about the wedding have you?" I said to Adrian
"Yeah kind of. It was more like a general wondering"
For the first time in my life I've been doing something that wasn't only making me happy. Therefore sometimes I thought that my parents were actually more excited than I was.
When we were driving home I looked through the window wondering about things. My head have never been so full of thoughts. Wow I've never knew the two years have passed since me and Adrian are together. No wonder he proposed to me. We have never had any big fights and everything was so perfect.
Oh Gosh he must really love me more than I love him I thought about it for a second looking at him driving. When he looked at me I smiled.
"What are you thinking?" He asked.
"I was thinking about emmm wedding?" I lied.
"You don't have to worry about that. We still have a plenty of time." It was when our conversation caught. For the rest of the drive we said nothing to each other.
Adrian dropped me in a front of my house.
"Thanks for the dinner with your parents. I really enjoyed that." He said
"Yeah. You welcome." I said.
"So I see you tomorrow?" He asked and leaned forward to kiss me but instead I opened the doors and went outside.
"Yes I see you tomorrow" I said
"Bye" He smiled although I saw that he was wondering why I was acting so weird. I waved him and put the key into the locker trying to open the doors. I saw his car disappearing at the end of the street. It was funny how my life was changing and I thought that when I'd met Adrian my life was completed. I was happy to have a shoulder I could cry on. However it has changed. Maybe I was just stressing before wedding ? It was a common feeling. Inside I could feel both - wonderful and scary feeling. Wonderful because I knew that I loved him and scary because I felt in completed in some other way. Adrain wasn't exactly fulfilling my needs. I knew that I could rely on him but on the other hand I couldn't imagine what it would be like if it all went wrong. I knew I wanted wedding and that all it counted.
Every time he mention something about the wedding I totally freaked out. I didn't know why. I wanted this more than anything in the world. It seemed to be too perfect. Marrying the man you really love and having a wonderful life. I was happy but all of a sudden everything felt weird. It was like I was losing my mind. But why ?
A week later I decided that it will be appropriate time to start the wedding plans. I was so excited that it was the time in my life when I can actually have a chance to plan the wedding of my dreams. As obviously I have never done this before I was totally replying on my parents at first who had some interesting ideas for purchases. I've never realized how stressful it can be.
It took me a week to complete a list of purchases and then I had to think about other things such as dress or guests - bridesmaids ?
Every day Julia was waking up and astonished how much she wants to wake up with Adrian although something didn't feel right.
When the plane started to move he looked at the views through the window. The views of the country he will probably never see again. The country where he was born in and growing up was slowly disappearing. Hiding behind the clouds. His heart was in pain. His mind was lost. He spent some time thinking about the opportunities he was missing out. He saw his cousins where sitting near making sure he will not do anything stupid. Being separated from the country and people he loved was the hardest thing he had to face. But it was a reality. For him it was a worst week he had to suffer in his entire life and thinking about the marriage arrangement made him feel even worse. The following week he had to meet his future wife-to-be parents and talk about their daughter. There was nothing he could do to escape from this situation. There was nothing he could to do make things right. It was already too late for him to make any move. With the shocked face, fear and no confidence he was living his childhood places to face the new life. He wished this never happened. He was praying to wake up from this nightmare but it was impossible.
"I can't go any further than this" He said to his oldest cousin
"I know its hard. We are all beginners. But let's just and think that in a week you are going be married and start a new life. Isn't that exciting?"
It wasn't for Amar. He knew he will never accept the new environment.
"Oh honey. You're going to make a beautiful bride" My mum said .
"Thank you !" I said. I knew I was waiting for this day in my entire life but somehow I didn't feel entirely happy.
"This is going to be a high celebration isn't?" My mum got excited" Have you thought about where are you going to get married ? "
"Oh mum not .." I didn't finished saying it
"I was thinking Miami?" He said
"Miami?" I asked with excitement.
"Yes Miami"
"Oh my God really? Its like a dream" I exclaimed happily
"Only better" Adrian said
"I love you" I said and we kissed" So you have been thinking about the wedding have you?" I said to Adrian
"Yeah kind of. It was more like a general wondering"
For the first time in my life I've been doing something that wasn't only making me happy. Therefore sometimes I thought that my parents were actually more excited than I was.
When we were driving home I looked through the window wondering about things. My head have never been so full of thoughts. Wow I've never knew the two years have passed since me and Adrian are together. No wonder he proposed to me. We have never had any big fights and everything was so perfect.
Oh Gosh he must really love me more than I love him I thought about it for a second looking at him driving. When he looked at me I smiled.
"What are you thinking?" He asked.
"I was thinking about emmm wedding?" I lied.
"You don't have to worry about that. We still have a plenty of time." It was when our conversation caught. For the rest of the drive we said nothing to each other.
Adrian dropped me in a front of my house.
"Thanks for the dinner with your parents. I really enjoyed that." He said
"Yeah. You welcome." I said.
"So I see you tomorrow?" He asked and leaned forward to kiss me but instead I opened the doors and went outside.
"Yes I see you tomorrow" I said
"Bye" He smiled although I saw that he was wondering why I was acting so weird. I waved him and put the key into the locker trying to open the doors. I saw his car disappearing at the end of the street. It was funny how my life was changing and I thought that when I'd met Adrian my life was completed. I was happy to have a shoulder I could cry on. However it has changed. Maybe I was just stressing before wedding ? It was a common feeling. Inside I could feel both - wonderful and scary feeling. Wonderful because I knew that I loved him and scary because I felt in completed in some other way. Adrain wasn't exactly fulfilling my needs. I knew that I could rely on him but on the other hand I couldn't imagine what it would be like if it all went wrong. I knew I wanted wedding and that all it counted.
Every time he mention something about the wedding I totally freaked out. I didn't know why. I wanted this more than anything in the world. It seemed to be too perfect. Marrying the man you really love and having a wonderful life. I was happy but all of a sudden everything felt weird. It was like I was losing my mind. But why ?
A week later I decided that it will be appropriate time to start the wedding plans. I was so excited that it was the time in my life when I can actually have a chance to plan the wedding of my dreams. As obviously I have never done this before I was totally replying on my parents at first who had some interesting ideas for purchases. I've never realized how stressful it can be.
It took me a week to complete a list of purchases and then I had to think about other things such as dress or guests - bridesmaids ?
Every day Julia was waking up and astonished how much she wants to wake up with Adrian although something didn't feel right.
When the plane started to move he looked at the views through the window. The views of the country he will probably never see again. The country where he was born in and growing up was slowly disappearing. Hiding behind the clouds. His heart was in pain. His mind was lost. He spent some time thinking about the opportunities he was missing out. He saw his cousins where sitting near making sure he will not do anything stupid. Being separated from the country and people he loved was the hardest thing he had to face. But it was a reality. For him it was a worst week he had to suffer in his entire life and thinking about the marriage arrangement made him feel even worse. The following week he had to meet his future wife-to-be parents and talk about their daughter. There was nothing he could do to escape from this situation. There was nothing he could to do make things right. It was already too late for him to make any move. With the shocked face, fear and no confidence he was living his childhood places to face the new life. He wished this never happened. He was praying to wake up from this nightmare but it was impossible.
"I can't go any further than this" He said to his oldest cousin
"I know its hard. We are all beginners. But let's just and think that in a week you are going be married and start a new life. Isn't that exciting?"
It wasn't for Amar. He knew he will never accept the new environment.
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