Numb Or Broken

I feel dead inside.

When I'm mad,
And I feel numb inside and broken.
I need a feeling,
So I get this rage problem,

I need something to hit,
The instant pressure or pain,
Lets me know,
I can still feel.

Lets me know,
I'm still human,
And the demon,
Hasn't fully taken over.

But if I feel this numb,
Who's to say I'm not dead?
Or am I Numb or Broken?