Now That I Know I Loved Him

He was special,
Truly caring,
What could've been mine?
Why did I not realize until too late?

I loved him,
He held me up
Supported me without me knowing
Caring even after being rejected.

Still coming to me smiling and laughing,
Coming to me,
Careful not to show how much I had hurt him.

I am sorry,
Now that I know I loved him,
Now when it is already too late.

I'm sorry I didn't believe him,
Now I don't see him by my side
I miss you,
I understand how much I needed him.

When he told me he loved me,
Something that took so much courage to say,
Something I don't have the courage to say,
Why didn't I believe him?

I am sorry, the friend I loved,
Now that I have lost him
Now that I know I loved him,
It's all too late.