Not Worth The Tears

I'm much stronger than this.
Nothing used to hold me back before.
But now weakness has settled in.
The weight of the world is closing it.

Expectations are crashing down.
Surrounding me from every side.
Feeling so lost and afraid but it's too late for me to cry.
Too late to turn back the clock
too late to close the door
I've cried one too many times
Until it's not worth the tears anymore.

Feeling so against the world
Wishing to die with the pain as my poison
Wishing to strike at the heart that abandoned me
Just to feed my selfish need and settle a painful score.
To do all these things and feel no regret or remorse.
As the pain to cry no more, fills my sorrow with a sweet yearning chorus.

As waves of reality come thundering down on what used to, a sweet bliss of a life.
All went down hill when adolescence chose me as its wife
Too late to turn back the clock
Too late to close the door
I've cried one too many times
Until it's not worth the tears anymore.

I want to escape reality and see the crossroads of another.
To see a bright light in the heavens beyond all the pain and sorrow.
To be accepted as his own to finally reach an understanding
But who cares about the past and what I do at the day's end
There's too much pride in my sorrow, but more than enough to see me through until the very end.

It's too late to turn back the clock
Too late to close the door
I've cried one too many times
Until it's not worth the tears anymore.