Not So Pleasant
New story: S new author: S.
"Life was never a fairytale nor a series of perfect scenes ...It's not a sequence of lucky numbers or a rainbow of beautiful colors..or at least it wasn't for me..
I've been forced to fake a smile for almost everyone I'm around just not to show how hurt I really am..
When I get mad I won't break dishes or throw everything in sight ..I will not slam doors or shout at anyone..I will only hurt myself...
When people blame me for things I've never done, I will not deny nor will I defend myself ..I will only blame myself till I myself believe it was all my fault..
I'm not weak..I'm not stupid..I'm not insane ..I'm just plain me.."
She finishes the last sentence, looks at her watch and notices she still has quite a long time before her classes start..
Still sitting on the floor with her earphones plugged in her ears.Scribbling
nothings into the notebook she carries around everywhere ..Just another creepy person no one wants to get close to or meet or even look at..
Radio is like this other world she lives in. Listening to people she doesn't know..some making fools of themselves ..some taking it serious and saying their opinions ..some just being crazy and cut off in the middle of some freaky sentence..
Radio hosts babbling everyday like they know everything in life..she laughs at them as if they were only talking to her..
Even when she knows she isn't really listening to those people taling on the radio she still has those earphones plugged in her ears ..Maybe just something that might block out reality or change it hopefully..or is she just running away from it?..tuning herself out of the whole world hoping she's just audience not really part of it..Maybe..
Why would an eighteen year old girl be like this? I'll tell you: EVERYTHING! yes everything..
She really doesn't want to hurt anyone..doesn't want to effect anyone ..she just wants to be invisible ..not seen..not known..just totally invisible to everyone..that would be for the benefit of the humanity ..that's what she thinks..
Days pass by ..she is not seen..not talked to..in uni she just sits on the floor in the sun waiting for her classes to begin..listening to the radio scribbling in her only friend, "her notebook" ..the only one who doesn't judge her for what she wears..what hairdo she has..for how many zits are on her face..who listens and does not interrupt ..the one she can trust..
I've been forced to fake a smile for almost everyone I'm around just not to show how hurt I really am..
When I get mad I won't break dishes or throw everything in sight ..I will not slam doors or shout at anyone..I will only hurt myself...
When people blame me for things I've never done, I will not deny nor will I defend myself ..I will only blame myself till I myself believe it was all my fault..
I'm not weak..I'm not stupid..I'm not insane ..I'm just plain me.."
She finishes the last sentence, looks at her watch and notices she still has quite a long time before her classes start..
Still sitting on the floor with her earphones plugged in her ears.Scribbling
nothings into the notebook she carries around everywhere ..Just another creepy person no one wants to get close to or meet or even look at..
Radio is like this other world she lives in. Listening to people she doesn't know..some making fools of themselves ..some taking it serious and saying their opinions ..some just being crazy and cut off in the middle of some freaky sentence..
Radio hosts babbling everyday like they know everything in life..she laughs at them as if they were only talking to her..
Even when she knows she isn't really listening to those people taling on the radio she still has those earphones plugged in her ears ..Maybe just something that might block out reality or change it hopefully..or is she just running away from it?..tuning herself out of the whole world hoping she's just audience not really part of it..Maybe..
Why would an eighteen year old girl be like this? I'll tell you: EVERYTHING! yes everything..
She really doesn't want to hurt anyone..doesn't want to effect anyone ..she just wants to be invisible ..not seen..not known..just totally invisible to everyone..that would be for the benefit of the humanity ..that's what she thinks..
Days pass by ..she is not seen..not talked to..in uni she just sits on the floor in the sun waiting for her classes to begin..listening to the radio scribbling in her only friend, "her notebook" ..the only one who doesn't judge her for what she wears..what hairdo she has..for how many zits are on her face..who listens and does not interrupt ..the one she can trust..
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