Not So Picture Perfect

This is not how I pictured it
Losing you, you losing me
The words sting as they exit your mouth
I know I deserve everything you say to me
I had to end it

Because of the inequality
Of us ever being together
My hearts paper thin
Getting new holes and tears
Every day
All this pain

Feels like sandpaper
Against my skin
Wearing me down
Again and again
Day after day

It feels like I've been
Punched in the stomach
Over and over
Rupturing everything inside
Sickening me till I can't take it

The aches and pain
Have become nothing but second nature now
I can't fight it anymore
It's hear to stay
To bad you aren't......